M i that scary?

maybe i am..

jus now.. met up wif my best fren.. someone who's like a sister to me.. thou nowadays we seldom meet but den.. nothing changes.. she's still so close to me. we chatted on some stuffs.. and is like.. we really.. grown up..

we start to worry about our futures etc... what plans we hav.. including financial planning for her.. for me.. i won't start my financial planning till i graduate and is in the workforce. But once i am in the workforce, think i will start to have financial planning.. it is like, to be financially successful.. the baseline is to be financially protected. den i will move on to financial accumulation... but now.. i m not financially protected yet.. so.. will hav to work on it when i start to have a stable income. and yar.. think i should get insurance once i start to work.. so when one day i suddenly pass away or whatever.. my family will be well taken care off.. esp my parents.. if i die first lar..

den.. we talked about a fren.. a fren.. who i dote so much but den now.. is like.. drift so apart.. coz.. i think she's afraid of me.. aiya.. is not i think.. d truth is.. yar.. she's afraid of me.. another fren told me tt..
m i tt scary? well.. i am, if i care for u.. hahaha..

she dun dare to look for me like what she used to do.. becoz she knows that she did something not so right.. and she noes that i will scold her or nag her or worry or watever lar.. eh... i dun normally nag ok.. it is onli when it is serious matter den yar.. i will nag... but she chooses to 'escape'.. but in the first place, she noe what she did is not right, but why did she continue to do that? it is time for her to grow up and settle down.. do what is right for her... n not to let her parents and friends who realli cared so much for her down.. if she says that she wanted to live her life for herself not others, then i would wan to ask her.. who gave her her life? is tat how she repay her parents?
yes, some friends nag at u.. but why did they do that? for fun? u think they enjoy doing that?

in the past, i'm there with another fren to guide her.. but now.. both of us are letting our hands off her.. we're not old, but not so young either... we should think for ourselves as well as others.. it is not the time to play le.. play only when u can afford to play and not play when u think u can afford to play.. so this time.. i wun 'scold' her neither will i be there to guide her. yes.. n i will treat it as i dunno anything at all. i wouldn't be there to 'standby' for her to fall and land on me.. if she falls, she got to get up herself... as a fren.. i should be there for her.. but, as a True fren.. i should let u fall and get u to learn ur lessons and get up on ur own so tat u will be a better person...

so those who knoe me, dun ever ask me why din i help her when i knoe stuffs are happening to her. it is not tat i dun help, is that she refused to be helped and she mixes with the wrong group of ppl. whatever i told her, it goes in and comes out as well... since she chooses to do this.. i will let her be this way.. but of coz.. one day when she's willing to do what she ought to do, i'll still support her..

ok.. dun talk bout tt.. well... these few days.. i've been doing my design fund shitie technique drawings.. what shit lar.. sooooooooooOOOOooo sian.. n i dunno i redo how many times le.. i'm sick of it.. realli sick! do until i told my mum i realli sian... but what surprised me is that.. my mum said this to me:" huh.. dun redo le lar.. aiyah.. jus hand up lar.. dun do well.. jiu dun do well lor.. dun expect too much.. jus hand it lor.. "

woah......... haha.... ok lor... think i also sick of doing.. so i'm gonna hand up wat i hav.. and prob get a C or D.. as long as dun F can le.. this will pull down my overall grades for design fund.. and amy S asked me to do well for this since d previous assignment i did well.. but....... i think i'm not going care about this... I M SICK OF DRAWING... at this moment.. hah... nvm lar.. aniwae.. i've nv wanted to get into animation or gaming..

left with.. god knows how many assignments.. and tml as well as sunday.. i got to go for work in suntec city.. so ?? will i finish my assignments? hhhmmm............. i hope so.. and i think so.. it's not about quality now.. i hav no mood for quality work... er.. at this very moment.. haha..

buai buai bloggie.. i m sleepy.. muacks.. good nite..