yes. i am officially 21. i am an adult. i am old. i am mature. i am very wise. i am a saint. i am clever. wat else?

yes. my hair is dropping. my hands are shaking. my eyes are shirking. my teeth are dropping. wat else?

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meeeeEEee....
HAPPPY birthDAY toooo ME~~ self entertaining. dotz.

aniwae, today is the "thank you speech part 3". ha..
d v cute grp 9 wanted to give me surprise BUT a spoiler is present. and that spoiler is gerald zhu junjie. hahahahahaha... he happens to be the 2nd person to wish me happy birthday on the day itself at 12:**second. d first is jane at 12 on d dot. haha.. and this spoiler actually asked me online what i want? and dots. who will go and ask ppl what they wan on birthday on??

den he say eh faster say eh.. den he ask bag? i say no coz i jus hav a new bag. den wallet? nope, i jus hav a new wallet. den perfume? nope, i also got a new perfume, d one i liked lar.. using gucci envy.. damn nice.. go get it! watch? also dun need. den he say guitar? er, i have one acoustic guitar already so dun need. den finally he say. ok set buy shoe liao lar. what size? and bo pian.. got to tell him my size and den d remark he made is that... "da jie, tml u go sch hor.. must act surprise okay? den act u dunno i tell u what the some of them get liao hur. act surprise steady?" dotz. dots. dotzzz..

so today.. i went sch.. and din act surprise coz damn hard to act like i dunno anything when i already know it lar.. so my reaction is still kinda normal lar... and of coz i appreciated it as well ah.. hahah de not so surprising surprise. haha.. i like other gifts as well arh.. anything i also like one lar.. no preference! gt heart can le! hmm and den off for dinner wif them in cafe ******.. ganna treated again which is soooo not used to it.. hhmmm....

OH OH OH!! i got to say this! today morning i was awaken by my father lar! i thot what happen coz my father will knock my door only like once in a year or something but this mornin he bang my door! den after that i had a shock and ran out and he was saying :" ah ni! faster take photo take photo!!!! take me and the fish!!!" dots...... i thot wat. den when i look at the fish, OMGGGGGGGGGGG DAMN BIG lar!!! is that a FISH? hahah!! he caught that at a beach or something with his bare hands. the tide was going down and he saw the fish which was trying to swim away den he jus ran after that fish and kinda catch it or something. i thought he will look silly and dumb doing that but it was power lar..

and i shall post the pic of him carrying the fish. he asked me to go develop into a photo.. er..... okay.. when i am free.. but aniwae.. he was so happy and my mum was saying i bring luck to him or something like tt.. when i was in my mum stomach, my father strike lottery and won damn a lot. since then he doted me a lot till now. so yeah.. but hmm nothing.

so what happen to the fish? it was slaughtered and distributed to some relatives, the rest was cooked by him and consumed by us. nice one. and our sofa jus right arrived today. =) but i was the last one to sit on it coz i came home only after dinner/shopping with class.

suddenly was thinking.. that.. hmm.. i am really quite pampered at home also. i dun need to wash plates when i finish my meals, dun even need to clear them sometimes. morning.. mama will ask me if i brushed my teeth, if i say yes den she will go make bread or whatever there is for me.. if like eat fish den got a lot of bones then my mother will take out all the bones and put nicely for us to eat.. er.. o and my mum will peel the oranges or even the skin of the grapes for me to eat.. she even remove the seeds in it.. come to think of it.. i am also a bit like jane hur... very pampered in the family.. but the diff is that.. when i am out of my home, i am quite different. i do my own stuffs and in fact.. it becomes that i am the one who pampers other ppl instead of letting ppl pamper me.. hmmmm... and which one do i prefer? well.... i like both.. pampering ppl and being pampered.

are you being pampered too? *wahahaha.. mummy de best! lurvvvee mummy! hahah! aniwae why am i writing these? thot it is my bday not mother's day?
aniwae, for record purpose... jane is the first to wish me =) and the last to wish me is lynette. haha on the 24th hr. she say she did it on purpose one. realli or not? or jus happen to be online only? *wahah.. and the first to wish me belated is deborah.. hahah! she planned that she wanted to be the last already and she waited till she fall asleep and woke up at 1230.. den faster msg me.. *wahahah.. cute sia... i was waiting for her msg lar.. without some ppl's msg, the whole day will be meaningless i guess.. =) yeah!!

hmmm.. was treated dinner at a fish food rest ( dun help them advertise coz they nv pay me) by nette and lamb. was feeling weird to let them treat coz.. hmm weird lor.. i will shy one.. as in hmmm.. know me long enough de ppl knoes that i dun let ppl treat one unless bo pian or certain reason lar.. ok la i noe it was like they say, annual affair.. =.=" still paiseh... eh..

ok mama say mus be polite so, thank you lynette. thank you sotong. haiyee... bleah.. *puke. a bit mushy to say this kind of thing isn't it? that y i didn't say thanks to them face to face.. easier to say here or sms ah.. coz dun get to see the face.. won't blush or wat.. Muahahaha.. er xing dao..

and they were kind enough to make me walk one whole big round to see them run after their bus and leaving me there to take train home.. so kind hur.. =.="
and i so do not feel like tony sun shoe mole. okay except for the soon-to-be balding part. =.=" when i am typing, i can feel hundreds of strands of hair dropping.. mama.. :( where is my head and shoulder shampoo? i dun wan to use silkpro or lux or whatever.. make my hair drop more.. i wan head & shoulder lar...

and yep i collected d other watch from jon, xiao de and perline already, it was white and blue.. same as the zhiqun and weifang one.. so how to wear? mag say mus wear theirs everyday, only take out when bathing. so er.. mon,wed and fri wear green de. tues, thurs and sat wear white de. sun rest. fair enough? thanks again woah =)

*shy and runs away.....


P/S: i still own 10 drawing.. argh..

i m damn tired now but den i still make myself blog no matter wat.. coz ha.. it's a unforgetable moment and really thanks for what u all did.. so unexpected and i'm of coz v touched lar.. but i couldn't cry coz really got no tears lar.. ha.. those who wanted so much to see me cry.. well.. sorry to disappoint u all.. really.. touched touched.. thanks thanks thanks.. well some duuno wat happened.. haha.. d story goes..

yday(sat), debbie asked me out for dinner at 888 Plaza. she say i mus go so okie lor.. she booked me like a month ago or something alreadi.. not tat i m v busy but coz i m too occupied with assignments that made me missed out a lot of dates with friends.. so like ard 730pm i met deb at 888.. we were all so dressed down. as in eat in 888 plaza machiam kopi tiam, what do u expect? so deb say she wanted to go to meirong hse there de another kopi tiam.. den i anything lor.. so we walked there.. but inside my heart i was thinking.. eh how come go there de kopi tiam den y not in d first place not meet me there? but i realli didn't suspect anything so i jus go lor.. debbie sound too convincing alreadi.. she say there de nasi lemak v nice. power lar..

so we went there.. until we were near meirong de block.. den i was shocked for a moment coz i realized that jane, mag, jing and esther were there. den i thot wah today got gathering is it? den jane they all say look behind them.. so i see clearly.. eh! wenhao, zhimin, shulin and hengyung were bbq-ing.. omg.. den i start to realized that they did this for me.. was really touched..

den wenhao suddenly ask me to go behind to the void deck.. den i was like huh? den suddenly received a call from marcus den he say sorry eh he cannot come to early celebrate wif me. den i was like huh? how he know i was celebrating when i didn't even noe it lar.. den out of a sudden, i saw marcus, kaiyun, huiwen and bee ching infront of me.. again HUH? how come u all here? den dunno who say waye! den again saw evvon, theresa, meirong,yumei and yushuang..and of coz doggie elmo! den shocked again.. huh huh huh?

suddenly see ppl try hiding.. den also dunno who say eh u go over the other side.. so i go over.. den omgggggg... wing wing, mouse, jon, xiao de and perline were there too!!! after that, huifen, darren and pr came over too.. it is like.. when did they plan this? and how did they do it lar.. there are like 4 cliques and then some dunno each other lar.. they nv even meet before or wat den how come like will come together.. omg.. tat was the part that i was most surprised..

after that den i noe that.. debbie is d main organizer.. she called up jane they all and they all each one settle on what stuffs they do.. esther cook bee hoon, jane cook curry (her maid actually), evvon marinate chicken breast meat, deb marinate chicken wings etc, zhimin bring drinks etc.. jane last min contacted huifen to tell my my classmates.. as in now everyone so busy wif webdesign yet some still come.. touched.. of coz received msges from those who didnt came as well..

den evvon they all is debbie contact de... den wing they all another clinque is evvon contact de.. as in evvon knows jon's hp no. but den they nv even contact each other before lar.. she got jon nos coz last time i gave her in case she can't find me or something den i also dunno how she go dig out the number and contacted jon.. den jon contacted wing they all.. den they all came.. sia lar..

salute them man.. dunno each other also can contact dao each other.. really.. gan dong dao.. thou like can see coz they dunno each other so there are diff cliques but yet willing to come over is the thing that touches me already.. feel like crying but tears jus dun flow.. as in so hard to cry infront of ppl right.. so weird.. but really thanks lar.. really.. gannnnnnnnnnnn dongg lar... den perline called up baobei in shanghai... and baobei talked to me.. wah.. lagi.. feel like.. missed her too.. lucky i nv cry.. cannot cry so easy one lar..

actually.. i really dun need a party or what.. to me.. it's jus another day.. nothing much special.. which is why i dun initiate to celebrate it.. unless ppl ask me out den okay lor go out lor.. but every year.. debbie will do her best to find ways to celebrate with me.. got once.. when they suddenly got me out of my hse and drag me to pasir ris den i noe they had a chalet for me.. den games etc.. already v touched le.. er.. i rmb i did er.. cry once.. then they laughed at me say i kid.. =.=" this time again like tt.. wa sey..really xin ku deb le.. of coz d others who helped her and turn up also lar.. realli..

jane ah.. already eyes wan to close liao still came and den halfway sleep on the chair arh.. also tired.. still come.. tweety.. rush from another place take cab here.. jon also like a lot of work to do yet come and den hav to talk to her colleague or boss or whoever abt work here.. a lot a lot more.. and huiwen,kaiyun, marcus and bc even got to met up wif jane help her take curry.. zhimin rush go buy a lot drinks.. esther cook beehoon herself.. evvon also.. drove car here bring pot lar..mag throw cake at me lar..some live damn far away lar.. etc.. wah sey.. can really see.. u all got put in effort lar.. ahhh... gan dong la...

and i break wing's heart. haha.. sorry lar.. i try to finish my assignments as fast as i can.. and they came with motive.. jane they all de motive is to see me cry. jon, xiao de they all de motive is to see me drunk. but none succeed. haha.. i wun cry infront of ppl de la.. wait long long lar.. v hard.. and i quiting alcohol already. i v long nv drink liao.. ok lar.. jus now got drink coz mus give u all face de mah.. drank a bit yi si yi si... i wanna quit alcohol liao aniwae i dun usually drink unless on occasions or wat lar den bo pian den drink. i go kopi tiam eat nasi lemak nv order tiger or volka etc de okay.. dun ask me drink liao lar.. quit quit quit..

den what else i wanna say? hmmmm... o yar! i saw the presents le.. haha.. thanks also.. and i got to say this.. there is a clash in present.. hahaha.. i got 2 exactly same model de adidas watch lar.. only different color lar.. hahahahhaa.. tt is funny lar.. d most weird one is a cheque from ah mei they all.. like i thot normally if wan give money is give ang bao or wat.. haha den they more ang moh style lar.. give cheque one.. damn funny lar.. meaning i got to go bank in or something.. so weird lar.. but of coz i like everything i got and it doesn't matter what i've got.. as long as u all got heart can already. dun give also nvm.. really..

for this moment.. i think i still considered v fortunate.. when i m v high, there bound to be something to drag me down and when i m sinking, something will pull me up and say get on with life hur. well, strike a balance? i m fortunate still, at this moment at least..
thanks and

thanks.

Ooooo what a title hur..
but really.. i was fucked.. i mean, the whole IM class was fucked...... by kun.

thurs as usual, imm and authoring day.. imm is still d same, boring.. and stephen choong nv come so ng wen lei teach lor.. after that was authoring... the first 2 and 1/2 hr was realli v fine and in fact fun.. BUT suddenly.. kun threw temper all because that someone is using his file from the reference drive without copying it and pasting it in their own desktop first. thus, resulting in him unable to save his file. duhz. so he starting shouting for us to not use the file straight from the ref drive. den after that he started fucking us already. as in he really scold and use all his strength, to fuck us. the whole room is like full of his "FUCK U LAR!! I DUN CARE IF U ALL GOING TO COMPLAIN TO THE DIRECTOR OR WHAT BUT I AM NOT GOING TO CONTINUE AND FUCKKKKKKKKKK U!!!!!"

he slammed the table, took a paper and wanted to throw at the people seated infront (poor things) and den d dotz thing is that when he use all his might to throw that paper, the paper sticks to his sticky hands. soooooooOOoo not man.. =.=" at least if the paper were to be successfully thrown away or teared up.. it looks more drama and more impactful. now, it onli made him look stupid. after that, more fuckings here and there.

and he left. dots. leaving the whole room in silence and den everyone blur blur start packing bag go home. dots. coen finally came up to say er.. class.. will resume nxt week, dun worry.. the stuffs will be taught again. and when coen haven leave the class, i called huifen to ask if she is done so that we could leave to go home together. den over the phone, i was saying purposely so damn loudly for coen to here.. aniwae i was saying " HUIFEN, U OK LE MA? WE CAN LEAVE LIAO, KUN FUCKED US. HE JUST FINISH FUCKING SO CAN GO HOME LIAO." and obviously coen heard that. but as usual. u think i care? it was done purposely aniwae. he can teach but that's not d way a teacher should behave. but aniwae, that's him.

no midnite movie today. auth done, web haven. new IMM hw as well as 3D as well as auth as well as i still own drawings. hiaz.. got to buck up a bit here and there before i go all out to play.
okay~ end of my that fucking auth day wif the fucking kun who fucked us.

nothin much.. jus 2 say that i am pmp-ms-ing for this whole week. what is pmp-ms? well.. it's pre-mid-post-menstrual-stress. not that i m havin d thing. prob is i very long dun hav that thing alreadi. and huiwen missed hers too. hmm...

well.. recently tend to be more emotionally unstable and sensitve and over-sensitive and whatever. ha.. as in anything anyone say could have anger me in anyway. den after tt okay again. dots. extreme happiness and extreme saddness for nothing. guess maybe i was too stress for a moment causing extreme saddness, den suddenly become slack so hack abt anything thus extreme happiness. den slack a bit den start to feel... dunno wat also.. den extreme saddness again. dots. menopause menopause.

aniwae.. i was tired with those assignments.. really wanted to sleep so much eh.. as in now i have two mattress piled up together for me.. making my bed more comfortable.. argh.. yet i cannot enjoy it.. shit.. nvm... i m finally done wif my auth assignment.. which i did last min.. by skipping sch today. ha.. and i still have to rush out a report, flowchart and storyboard. yes i will do report. but flowchart and storyboard? nah~ i dun think i wan to do.. get c or d for this assignment ba.. dun fail can alreadi.. too tired to do lar..

still got imm to do and hand in tml.. also haven do.. haiyo... imm realli v crap neh.. yet cannot dun do.. coz i think er... stephen choong and coen kinda like me... after that time that i rebut him in class when i am already kinda wrong for only showing up for imm during d last 5 min of class.. he now reg me and will come and 'act cute' to me.. er.... haha.. i thot he should dislike me n give my attitude prob? hmm.. maybe he likes rebellious students. =) thou i m not totally rebellious. jus a tiny lit bit.. =)

haiyo.. time to do report!! how to do???
i wan to play i wan to relac i wan to sleep i wan to ??
bc say tml watch midnight movie arh? sure no one wan to go one thou i dun mind.. see how lar...

ha funny enough tat being a clown is such a fantastic case when they wanted to surprises kids with intentions of making them smile with sweets or balloons, yet ended up with kids looking irritated, impatient and runs away. they seem to be thinking that they come with don't know what purpose/motive or what is the clown thinking. oooo.. and how wonderful the very or over-sensitive clown should be feeling to see the kids's backview and think that maybe he should just do his own job of juggling only in a circus and not go out to scare people till the kids are ready to accept that he comes with no bad intention of anything. still, d clown is still a clown who lives normally till his dying day. well, maybe on his dyin day, he would pray that in his nxt life, never let him be a clown. a dog is even better than a clown. at least the dog gets to be sayang-ed/welcomed and not screamed at or watever. great surprise. =)


anywae, i shall skip sch.

midnite time no sleep yet i am going to type out some thots. not all but some. was feelin quite *** now. nvm that. i cannot type it out aniwae.. i jus came back from peiren's bday party aka chalet kind thing. and i din stay over mainly coz of my assignments.. they spent too much $ on the food already.. more than a thousand.. yet cannot finish so was kinda wasted and i did feel bad for not staying over coz we were considered her close friends but.. well all had their own reasons. hope she is doing fine and not feelin unhappy over *** ..

this party more or less made me hav more thots and nothing else. how complicating it can go really depends on the character of *** .. and i dun wish to see something which i think i have already some predictions, but i am not saying. last week.. i saw this whole chunk of stuffs on my cousin's blog.. and i find it quite true and of coz it mus be something that has got to do with her. aniwae.. this is the whole chunk of stuffs she wrote:

Life become meaningless when u are a loser...Life wif buddies will make everyday a paradise So treasure each moment with them..It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.

i guess there are so many so called 'losers' now.. ard me and *** . and it really sucks that all these mus be something got to do with affairs of the heart. and i am quite amazed by some stuffs.. and even shocked at some facts and i think there is more to come. if there really is something call retribution den i think *** . i dun wan to see it so i think***got to do something about it.

suddenly.... i really feel like... i dunno... going to be a hip nun on a mountain or something? when u grow older, u see more things that u dun wan to see and dun wan to feel. and i hope to go to the stage whereby everything and anything is of no effects to me. seems feeling-less but it can be a form of relief hur.. no anger, no depression, no extreme happiness, no emptiness no nothing. plain and simple life. morning run up mountain carry 2 pail water, make roti toast, wash clothes. afternoon go hit gong one hour and den go town shopping 2 hr come back mountain fish for kampong small fish or bang wild boar go bbq and eat. nite time stay in temple secret computer lab chat msn with friends living in the outer world and then drink choya to relac a bit or work on freelance design job earn extra cash for shopping trips. best if got spa on mountain den open air somemore, can go there naked no one see den enjoy good moments. so damn relac hur.. crap.

aniwae.. d onli thing that i think is the best news i got today is that........................................... my........ best........... sister................. deborah.................................................................................
is getting married on sept 18th!!!!!!!!! so damn fast and unexpected and whatever lar.. but i realli happy for her coz she is the best gal i have ever seen... no one expected it aniwae..

as in.. thou.. she dun hav a nice looking 'casing' but yet she has a inner beauty. but i do think that those who dun look pretty and yet managed to have someone liking her are usually those with a kind heart.. typical thinking but i think it is very true. guys now.. really... very realistic.. at least those i noe.. chio and not chio ones, who will chose the not chio one? and even if they already got the chio one, they can still be not satistfied and look for a chio-er one even when they are already attached.

admire debbie's courage to get married at 21 yr old.. for me.. it is so too early.. but diff ppl diff thinkin.. i jus wan her to be happy den can le... anything also can..

p/s: long entry. enough craps. go do hw or slp? thinks.

well, had a sports day in nyp hur.. starting at ard 2.. played some badminton and i declare that i am kinda lazy.. prob becoz i wasn't in the usual sports wear.. make my actions sure limited.. jeans keep like wanting to drop down.. aniwae it should be a good news that it seems to be dropping down instead of bursting out.

after that met others and proceed to our dinner outing for not the full grp 9 and 2 'ogls' thou i dun treat them like ogl. d other one has nv appeared in our gathering before so i nv ask her anymore. it's most like when i ask 1 time, 2 time, 3 time.. dun come den i wun call already. most of d time is this case. aniwae.. aniwae.. i did msg almost everyone abt this and so did bc.. thanks for doing if he did read my blog thou i dunno if he did coz i din announce my blog to ppl unless they asked.. they jus know it somehow.. but as usual, some replied.. some nv.. and it is kinda sian to have ppl not replying u when they should. i dun like the feeling but i do always get it. somehow.

aniwae.. the rest of us had dinner in breeks city hall. 1/2 go for breeks and 1/2 for seoul garden but we were seated nxt to each other coz er.. i also dunno why.. is breeks and seoul garden under the same company or something. nvm.. doesn't matter.. the service for breeks is okay but they quite blur also.. and what we did is like crap all d way, nothing serious. and thank god it is not serious if not we will be bored. they had this 'punishment'.. actually i wanted to say 'for-fit' but i dun think this is the spelling.. er... is.. er.. forfeit? or for--- something lar.. as in u all noe lar. 'for-fit' lor.. dun laugh at my eng la.. i not so bad can? as in i do get b4 for o level eng lar.. realli..
o ya.. d punishment is to eat er.. veggie. =.=" wat kind of punishment is this?

aniwae, the game we had was like me and tweety have to speak in english, wugui wugui fall down and swim river and lohan fish(new nick) have to speak in chinese. game judge is nette and d most loyal audience is kaiyun. ha.. and d whole session is talk rubbish lar.. spam them with my power lang ability and vocab.. test my spelling somemore.. dots.
the whole thing is jus pure crap and rubbish lar..

after tat, did nothing liao.. walk walk sit down drink kopi den go home. rush for last train hur if not mama scold right.. but i think we should go out more often for relaxation since we are all so tied up wif sch work now..

okay.. that's ard it for d day. and i think some ppl who i dunno and dun welcome to read my blog did read my blog somehow. it's okay, since internet is like so no secret. but if u r reading this and u noe u are the one, den sorry but i got to say u are not so welcome here. my entries are so not meant for u. my blog is onli for ppl i noe and ppl i like.

okay and now wat.. i realli think i have a serious hair problem now. one of my main concerns.. my precious hair.. my hair is almost like my life, without hair means without a life. the onli thing that i like most on my head is my hair.. as in coz it's soft and i dun hav to comb it so i like it so much.. but i am losing it.. god bless me to have more hair.. as in on the head the hair not on armpit or other places lar. but i wan more more more hair.. not too much also.. jus plus maybe 20% and den dun let my hair continue to drop okay? i dun wan tu tou.. i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan..

okay back to hw now. i still hav 0 for webdesign when we are supposed to show d whole thing or almost whole thing like on monday? my name is realli last min now. stress..

Part 1
AHHH... feel so bad.. hmmm today is wing birthday and i told them i will be going.. coz at first they say auth cancel for today. so i told them i meet them at 630pm... after IMM..
DEN WHAT!??!!! NOW coooEN say got auth!!!!! ARGHHHHHHH by d time 930 lar.. cannot meet them... hiaya..sian diao.. cannot help wing celebrate when she is treatin me so nice.. thou she dun blame me for that but den still... :(

hiaz... aniwae.. IMM v boring so i was running here and there ka-jiaoing ppl... and found some pics of beluga.. smiling and whistling wahaha.. will post tonite or later aniwae..

Part 2
okay continute after lesson. finally back at home after the super long but fun authoring class.
okay authoring = stress + blur + fun. i'm jus here to continue wif my beluga craze for the moment since i have nothing to be crazy over now.. but now thinks that beluga's forehead very high. *wahhaa.. kinda cute and funni at the same time. high forehead.. like dua pek gong and the dunno what gong with the pink color bun.. u noe.. the shou4 tao2 and one walking stick de god.. er.. whatever lar.... got bright future =)*wahaha.. lala
beluuuuga...comes~

hah beluga whistling~

this pic look kinda funni too.. it's like it's saying:"Eh.. u here arh? wanna eat te gua?"


haha this one.. like hey.. wanna kiss? haha.. looks kissable thou.. but look closer den a bit like huiwen coz she always do this to me.. =.=" suddenly not cute liao..
even d angry beluga dun realli look angry eh.. haha.. coz the teeth not sharp.. haha.. cute eh.. i never say i wan te gua!!

aniwae, craps. everyday work on assignments.. sooner or later will go bonkers. lalal..

Muahahah.. i jus read part of a book on sea mammals and i remembered that i've always liked beluga the white whale since young. when i was in pri sch, my bro would tell me how much he liked the killer whale coz they are very fierce and they will kill ppl so there are called killer whales. he like cruel stuffs aniwae.

so me being the very cute and innocent child at that period of time, hated killer whales to the core. killer whale means cruel and inhumane but aniwae, they are not human. dots. and also due to the fact that the main color of killer whale is black, so i decided to like beluga which is white and is also a whale and has a charactistic which is very different from the killer whale.

so i started to read books on beluga but when i grow older, the term beluga seldom appears on my mind. so when i saw this book of sea mammals on the table.. which i think belongs to my bro, i took and flip to the beluga page. =) i think the beluga is still as cute as before. not that they can change their appearance in any way. but it can make expressions with their lips.. and look like they are frownin etc.. for eg like.. the beluga can round their lips till it looked like they are whistling etc.. and when they close their mouth, they look like they are smiling.. and they are special among all whales coz they can turn their heads! Muahahaha.. that is like so cute rite? or they are actin cute.. like huiwen's KOoooO Yi mAh~~ but diff feel.. beluga is realli cute but huiwen not so cute. =X

aniwae.. haha.. i still like beluga =) and i still dun like killer whale =(

BElUUUUUGAA~~~

Muahaha..
i completed my 3D! Intially i really dun like 3D as in the teacher give last min work and her face not friendly one.. but when steve lim took over, it was so much better.. we were supposed to design our own vehicle either car or bike as long as it has wheels the day before she told us to submit our design on the dmd forum and we were like.. HUH? need to design nv tell us some more ask us to go find blueprint online and photocopy for waT? waste time and $. but of coz as very guai students, we did as told.

so this is my temp rough sketch for the vehicle i wanted to model. i did onli d side view rather than all d 4 views coz of being lazy and lazy and still lazy. i went out instead of staying at home to rush for the other views. the concept of this vehical which i called it er.. "motor-car-bike" coz it is neither a car nor a typical motorbike. but whu cares?

and after that.. time to start modelling.. and it got me a bit pissed to see so ugly er.. wireframe etc.. and den the whole cover is like arh..

but kong zi say, we mus be patient to gain good result. ok i dun think kong zi got say but nvm... starting to hang of it and finally when applying the textures or skin.. u noe, anticipating for the result was so gan jiong and fun, but ok, anticipating can be irritating as well.

and the result of my model!! sort of diff from my sketch but i kinda like it =) and o ya.. i make a copy of the motor-car-bike and change the skin to the same design i did but diff colors. and i make sure that my DAN is on it *wahahah.. some caps.

okay done!

BUT, it's time for MG assignments and drawing and webdesign and authoring assignments. basically it still means that i got no slacking time and that i still need a "fun-ER" life. badminton on fri steady bo? i noe cantwakeupblueandyellow is nodding her head =)

well.. i shall wish my mum happi mother's day here. =) i din dare to say to her this thou.. er.. coz i shy. muahaha.. i really mean i shy as in okay.. a lot ppl wun believe that i am actually shy but, I M.. as in we dun have the habit of saying this kind of mushy things in my family. and how mushy is "happy mother's day to u?" er.. VERY.. even my mum bday, i would jus give her present as in "ma, na~" den hand her d present and laugh laugh go back to room. =.=" and wat did i got for mum?

nothing.
i din get anything for her this year.. she say this to me:" ni ah, u dun buy for me this year coz hor, ur money is my money. i rather u take the money and use for sch or daily purpose then to buy present for me. it would be also = to me buying present for myself so u dun buy. when u work den u buy. i wan a diamond ear ring then huh."
hmm okay lor.. make sense.. so dun buy lor..

aniwae, we had dinner in d very yummy sembawang old shopping centre thai food rest yday to celebrate coz today sure crowded. most of the woodlanders, sembawanglanders, khatiblanders and yishunlanders and northsidelanders will know this restaurant ba! neh~ the place where we sisters would go for lunar new year dinner every year. =) nice nice nice nice food. maybe nxt time could hav a gathering to bring the grp 9 there... realli nice la i nv bluff.. provided they want lar.. and fly kite in marina. yes.

i guess everyone's very tired with own stuffs and sch work or watever that is. so.. some already become wakeupcalltoiletandbreakfast, wakeupcallcoffeeandtea and there is even cantwakeupblueandyellow. gosh.. as for me here is wakeupprayteegongandduapekgong.
okay some dunno what i m saying but grp 9 should knoe ba.. nvm.

neeeeed to spice up my life and other people's life a bit here and there. next week go play badminton steady bo? sekali all buai steady coz there's still more work. eh.. cannot.. =.=" thurs wing bday, sat pr bday. =.=" wat a timing.. sun sure struggling wif assignments again. left with fri.. er.. nvm. think again..

i was listening to bad day by daniel powter, send to me by huifen.. and den yar rite i had a bad day..
at first trying to struggle wif my 3D model den dunno y itchy hand go and change my ear stud which i pierce for some reason some time ago. and i wasn't able to see it so i asked my bro to help me and dots. it was swollen.. bro dunno do what to it.. den after that he say got a lot of blood den take tissue paper start squeezing all the pus and blood out and also dunno for wat reason once he let go, i jus fell and ya rite. fainted lor. well not a new story thou.. it's not d first time i faint and i dun think will be the last. now i'm awake.. after dunno how many hours dah da.. i think it's either that i see blood den i faint or too pain den i faint or i got low blood pressure or i didn't eat regularly or ?? aniwae.. my health seems to be a prob for me already.. but my ear not pain now, jus one whole patch of blood clot there *wahahaha.. but my head pain. =.=" bro laughed at say i jus suddenly drop down and kok my head on the floor. come to think of it, i think the scene will look quite funny.. =) quite animation style.

go back to rush work ba. i am lagging way behind. hiaz..

thurs nite time~ tml no sch! vesak day.. aniwae, jus came back from jane's place coz that fellow eat dinner also lazy.. got to send dinner to her hse somemore. and we chatted as usual and looked thru some old pics of her etc. and it's such a great change. of coz mag and me were supposed to post her those so 'glam' pics out to attract viewership or whatever. AA attract attention. aniwae, here are her 'glam' pics. enjoy~

it was kinda scary how great the change is on the appearance isn't it. but to me, it doesn't matter if her looks has change to good or bad as long as her heart remains the same then it is ok.

there bound to be some changes in your life, good or bad. when u noe it is bad, change for the better. when u noe it is good, maintain it and dun take it for granted. most imptly, dun lose the innocence that one should have no matter how realistic the society is. whichever la.

unexpected.
d more i noe d more hurt i got.

had mee sua wif 2 egg today =) nothing else happened thou.. it always happens the same way.. peace and plain.. but still i appreciated it..

aniwae.. kinda fall sick or m i alreadi sick.. er.. i think so.. coz i couldn't sleep.. nose blocked.. and i sneeze blood.. 3 times that is.. having coughs and headaches as well.. jus feel not comfortable that is. and gosh.. tml will be such a long day..

as in by rite, tues should be jus from 12-6.. but coz kun is going overseas so there is a change in timetable for this 2 weeks.. meaning the thurs auth lesson will be rescheduled to tues 6-9 or 630-930.. either way.. which would means, tml i have to attend lesson from 12-9 or 930 straight.. 3 hrs of MG, 3 hrs of 3D and 3 hrs of auth. duhz... if i dun die of hunger den i will most prob die of stress, boredom and coldness. com lab is freaking cold lar.. hiaz..

and er.. i think grp 9 kinda like authoring and scripting wahahaha.. everyone gets so excited with the flash etc.. and those scripts.. even thou i dun understand but yet it looks er.. kinda interesting.. scripting = maths? aniwae coen or cooen or ko-en's math logic looks weird but nvm.
the most boring of all is IMM.. where everyone jus sleeps or chats or msn-ed but now they set a rule that we are not supposed to do that in class le. but it is damn boring lar.. do flowchart den jus look once glance then that's it. wth. n dunno who say stephen chong look and sound so much like a MP. haa.. i agree..

aniwae. i did nothing much today again la.. haven do MG yet. maybe will try to crap something out first see how. i doubt tina will check. and pls dun do 3D coz i haven do anything yet. =)
stressed sicko.

i'm back from d chalet.. well.. this chalet was like very rare.. once in dunno how many years perhaps? and who's there? there is jane of coz.. maggie, jing jing, peiren, zhimin, wenhao, darren, heng yung, jinwei and er.. got come=no come de jeremy.. went yday noon.. chiongster hao was kinda angry coz of the food stuffs but after that was ok..

and those stuffs that he marinated were all very nice.. and damn spicy hot. esp tat 'zhu-wood zhu-wood'.. i din realli like to eat bbq food esp like chicken wing etc coz i dun like my hands dirtied. but tis time was a diff case. it's too nice to resist hur.. thanks to him for the effort, appreciated it..

d night was spent bbq-ing, volleyball and chit-chat session. bbq resulted in me having damn bad sore throat. volleyball = having small little buise dots or watever on my hands. chit-chat session = nothing much. coz i dun talk much. i've been thinking that how come when i am out wif ppl i not so close with or wat.. i seem to talk more. but when it is like with sooo long and close de frens den i m more quiet and in fact i dun even open my mouth to talk. now i think.. perhaps the reason could be that in my daily life, i have been entertaining ppl with some craps and i talk too much that i get easily tired at times. so when i am wif really closer frens, i would jus sit down and listen.. enjoy d moment of peace.. speak a sentence or two when neccessary. besides that, zipped~ of coz that dun apply to when i am alone wif jane or wat coz that fellow hur.. jus crap lar.. and whatever she say also very 'ji dong'.. quite funni..

o n i slept most of the time again. er.. i always sleep in chalets.. =.=" n thank god jane is NOT d one who sleeps beside me.. heng ah.. this twin soul hav d habit of hugging ppl during her sleep. she will even cross her leg over u and make me feel like a bolster. cannot forget tt last time she hugged me so tight to sleep and i cannot move my body den d other day i got body cramps or something. somemore tell me that she dreamt that she was hugging a dolphin or penguin.. =.=" lame shit lar her.. so when jing is d one who sleeps beside me, i thot it would be so much better.. BUT..

=.=" midnight she scares me coz when i opened my eyes, d first thing i saw is her 'gigantic' eyes and she mumbles that she is very cold. i think it is better for me to back-face her coz her eyes like ghost like that.. too big..long hair somemore.. midnite a bit scary.. she started to cover herself with blanket n den hide behind my back and kinda 'smelling' me.. dots.. ah niang ooei.. u cold i also cold eh.. i cannot move much in case i woke her up.. so meaning no diff with sleeping wif jane lar.. =.=" movements restricted..

aniwae nothing much happened.. there's couple of pool games.. arcade basketball game and a crazy card game which i didn't participate coz i was ZZzzzZzz-ing.. but can still sense v happening.. their faces were all drawn wif lipstick.. eyeliner etc.. as for me? nothing happen =)
PEACE~

came back early today instead of tml. main reason is that i had assignments to do and so far i did nothing for anything. that would means that i got to sacrifice some sleep and play time to do what i ought to do. now..i'm feeling lazy and sleepy. tml den do lar.. haiya.. IM ppl relac eh.. dun do leh.. tml den do eh..
steady.

p/s: parting is never easy..

i found my ring today =)
miracle~

jus a casual action and u noe what i am thinking and feeling.. i din even see u.. this twin soul.. is still d one who is by my side when i needed someone.. didn't tell u how i feelin yet u can msg me to say u got feelin that i not happy so mus meet for ur dinner.. and u hit it jackpot abt what i m not happy with.. of coz i'm willing to throw aside my tons and tons of assignments to meet u too.. i dun do that for many ppl.. and i wun say thanks to u for accompaning me every now n den coz i m not supposed to do that huh. frens dun say thanks.. moreover, u're my twin soul..

i dun think i'm able to get a twin soul like u in any other places.. coz there is only one in this whole world.. so no matter how down i m.. i still hav u.. and also deb.. thou there is a lot of things that i didn't tell her coz i din wan this sister of mine to worry thou.. jus like d way she dun wan me to worry for her.. that's how stable the relationship is.. long and steady.. that is what i like..
i wan quality not quantity friends.

i m thinkin of so many things at one time that gets me irritated somehow and i dunno how long can i stand it.. everything piles up.. there are too many questions that i wanted to ask yet cannot ask or rather, dunno how to ask and i dun even think there is an answer to it. d more complicated it is, d more irritating it is.. wanted to keep things simple yet i dun think it is so possible now. more n more stuffs discovered.. more n more...nvm. once for all or never ever. dots..

my twin ah.. i really feel like cutting hair lah.. v hot.. d weather.. itchy..

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