Spent some time lookin or rather, peeping at jane doing the catwalk trainings. well, met up wif her for dinner after my er.. facial tat is. facial? FACiAL? ya rite. i was pyscho-ed aka forced to buy this facial voucher or watever shit by modern beauty (u noe, the kym ng ad that one) coz i dunno how to reject ppl.. so i brought it reluctantly..

the facial was boring coz i nearly fall asleep. but overall ok lar,it lasted ard one n half hr.. ok aniwae, back to jane's catwalk thingie. the poor girl had to endure wif those scoldings from the er... "dr yip" hur.. and the 'dr yip' quite cool and fierce.. haha.. but i like it!
yip says: "WAT IS BELOW UR MOUTH?"
jane says:" chin..."
yip says:"WAT IS BESIDE UR CHIN?"
jane says:" shoulder..."
yip says:" DEN?"
jane says:".... oo... ok.."

for once, jane look soooo er.. obedient u noe.. nod and shake head only.. and the dr yip is like wah... sooo hmmm~ attitude~ keep scolding her for her mistakes.. can realli rmb how she sound like when she says to jane:" i dun wan to take ur mouth! chins up! give me one real pose! walk faster! ur mouth again! now! give me a smile, maintain it. NO NO NO! dun be lazy huh! ok.. ok.. that is ok.. go walk again and u i will make it do it till u get it rite.. ok now, this is not bad.. maybe u can ~~~ blah blah blah~"

no wonder jane so 'guai'.. Muahuauhahaha.. she was like walking near non-stop on the same platform wif those super high heels which resulted in numerous blisters etc.. no wonder she keep feeling dizzy.. but when u gain some, u got to lose some.. no pain no gain. that's life. as for me, i happily sit down there listen to those scoldings which were not meant for me.. and i din realli wanted to affect jane's mood so i was like lookin at the floor for near 90 mins. Ooo but i got peep thru the glass table reflection to see how she walks. this cat here can walk but lazy to walk.
dr yip will be the cat owner hur~ MUahhahaha.. walk the cat!
meow~

finally kinda more or less decided what i should do unless something stupid or watever happens again.. i still dun feel needed anywae. it's gonna end somehow. sometime.

aniwae.. jus back from the grp 9 chalet, hopefully its not the last. was held in like arganda or archanda or ar-something-da country club with v comfy bedrooms for 3 daes 2 nites. luxury hur.. coz i'm always the first to sleep n one of the later ones to wake up. and thanks to huifen for constantly pushing me a bit here and there.. dun understand y mus she hold my arm to sleep, wan me to face her n even put her legs over me to slp. dumb but cute.

played some games like the wat 'ID ID ID ID singing wat thing' and er... danced crappy movements.. bbq-ed, played pool, ps2, arcade.. that basketball machine is damn power and as usual, drinks wif them. too bad that most hav to leave for the ogl things this mornin.. if not can like go do something else again.. initially some girls wanted to go k songs alreadi.. in d end also din make it.. coz lazy to go tampines.

aniwae, i still love grp 9 and grp 9 loves me. at least i feel so lar.

no pics for this chalet coz i nv buy battery. lazy. send me online hur..
as for d rest of this 2 weeks, guess it would be constant going out and i dun care.

time to be silly

had a jab on the ass yday morning. ouch.
of all place, y d ass?

aniwae.. had a bbq wif 02s06 at east coast.. and it had been 2 years since i last met them.. so yeah.. nothing realli change much for them.. er.. still so a bit er.. nvm.. maybe should meet wif 02s15 also.. and it was realli thoughtful of theresa tan not theresa chan. we all did nothing much except bbq and watch soccer and chat a bit den go home. late.

i know i haven been blogging and even if i blogged, there is nothing much.....
ok.. for some reasons, i did mia a while.. but i'm still alive and kicking so dun worry..
i've been working part-time since last tues when studio project ends.. so i din have a single break yet...

i spent like mon- fri, 11-7 in raffles place under the sun looking at the 'talents' or 'statue-ette' (as usual, i dunno how to spell and i dun bother to check dict) and a stupid ugly present. it wasn't fun at all and it was so damn boring that i got pissed off so often.. and also there's a ah pek screwing the pillar of OUB centre everyday ard 530pm. he's mad. and also had glare at a indian man who keeps drinking pepsi and saying 'hellos' to me. another mad one. clubbin got indian man approach, sit at raffles place sleeping also got indian man n malay man approach.. do i look like a indian/malay lady who had learnt all the karma sutra techniques?

as for the talents.. they were v not punctual except one called shuzhuang. ruth was late coz of army daze performance so it was ok..the rest also ok la.. v open-minded ppl coz they all learnt arts.. or performing arts.. i did took a pic of ruth when she is doing her job and ya.. i did their make-ups etc..
besides that.. did other stuffs after work like havin dinners outside.. clubbed.. shopped.. ktv-ed.. stoned at esplanade etc.. n i had to wash the clothes of those talents.. for my 20 years of life, i think i onli washed clothes during the period when my mum was hospitalised.. and now i had to wash their clothes.. shit.. lucky tml's my last day at work. i can dump all those stuffs back to theresa.. after that.. will be off to dunno do wat.. i think i will jus keep going out.. walk one step see one step. maybe take up another job if there is..

have been listening to my immortal and one last cry by Evanescence and Brian McKnight respectively and.... give me more time. i'll be ok.. sorry..

i need to get myself occupied.. working, clubbing, eating, shopping, singing, drinking, bbq-ing, chalet-ing ... whatever.. too tired to think already..

sorry to those who kept me busy these few days or something.. u noe who u r.. n not that i dun treasure u all so i nv blog on wat we did but ya.. maybe some other days.. maybe not.. i dunno.. n i dunno wat to do when jane n mag goes to shanghai..

我正在新加坡工业区里当一个活动的协调人员，暗于苦闷，
便带了本小品文到其地方阅读。
读着、读着。。不禁抬头观察起人群来了。

怎知，这一望竟足以让我感叹大多数工作人士的脚步像机械般匆忙、生硬。
人群中偶尔出现三、四个中学生在要求善款。
他们个个带着亲切的笑容、热情的心态，尽心尽力地行善，可是却不断的碰到钉子。人们都不愿意停下脚步，看看周遭需要帮助的人。

我把一元投进了慈善筒子里，换来了一个感激的笑容。
一份感慨及欣慰涌上心头。
感慨是因为快速的脚步带走了人们的岁月，也带走了他们的人情味。
欣慰的是，我不是他们。

first day of work suxs...
i work as a fa-ci-li-ta-tor in raffles place and the job requirement, i think.. would be patience and tolerance. i think 2 weeks later i would be v tan or quite tan.. no.. i will be burnt.. n also i may die of lung cancer due to ppl smoking profusely ard me or boredom... so yeah.. havin meals alone can be so lonely..

A very very very very very happi bday to jane.. hope she had fun yday nite and today even thou she drunk very early and left us there to party and i din even noe that till dunno wat time. it was like er.. partying in a party without the birthday girl. =.=" but still, we all had kinda fun and that u are still a queen!

heard someone say before, girls ability to drink depends on her will to stay conscious but guys depend on their er.. 'jiu liang' la.. last nite i had no will and no control to stay conscious so i was drunk but nv vomit.. i'm still troubled... i feel like vomitting the whole of today but still .. cannot get it out. n i dun think that i m having a hangover that is making me feel bad today.. and i know why but nvm that.. aniwae poor beicheng has to wait outside for us last nite coz he underage.. edwin dances like a old man and spoiled robot but that was entertaining enough. kaiyun dances and she quite high! and thanks to gerald for takin care of me when i cannot make it..

got home with the help of them and bathe.. slp a while den go out coz meeting nette n retarded for a supposed to be cycle 'outing' but ended up sun tanning and bowling, before retarded starts her fypj on monday.. maybe i won't get to see her for some time since i will be having holis while she is locked up in that room and that i will be working starting on this tues for 2 weeks de weekdays first.. so ya..

monday SP presentation! not prepared at all i haven do out the casing, scene package and portfolio and stuffs yet.. slacker slacker. this sem i realli too slack.. if cannot get to IM den get to animation is still better than games.. but if go games.. maybe i will consider quitting school..

过去的我
因为不懂得沟通 努力学习让自己多点幽默
日子久了 我成为大家所谓的开心果
但有时并不因此而快乐
渴望和众人一起笑而不是被嘲笑

现在的我
以为懂得沟通后 却发现还是不沟通来得好
默默无声 没人明白
但至少不会伤害到身边的人
错误的沟通不是沟通

最近好像有点回到中学时期的‘我’
常被人当成小丑
表面上可以不在意
内心却无法平静

我不是玩偶
我有感情
我不是完美
我有脾气
我有血有泪
但我方佛失去了流泪的理由

很想躲起来
但却躲不开
不懂得沟通的玩偶
不想沟通
不想当玩偶

I started a joke, which started the whole world crying,
but I didn't see that the joke was on me, oh no...

I started to cry, which started the whole world laughing,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

'Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

as i was trying to think for the poster design for my ricesack, i looked thru pictures i took or pics took by others.. and a lot memories came clashing on me.. those were the days and i dun noe if i can ever have those moments again..

this is taken with my pretty cousins.. at grandma's hse.. without grandma alreadi..

20050725 Grp 9's class chalet! that's the first chalet we had and i love that chalet! fun! i missed it...

20051223 day when baobei came back to SG for a short break.. was taken at the mrt station where the both of us played dunno wat shit..

20051224 Chirstmas eve! where we did a countdown at perline's hse and those smaller ones got drunk.. ha..

ah.. this is the first time i played archery.. forgot the date but it was at NUS coz mouse is from the archery team yah.. and we didn't need to even pay to play.. haha..

20050224 last year's debbie's bday pic at kbox. a pic of the '7 sisters' excluding crystal.. that i will rmb for life.. but things had changed and i doubt there will be a time whereby this grp of ppl will come together again.. near impossible..

20050709 Grandma's last birthday celebration.. realized that i dun hav my grandma pic on com.. but that's one on my handphone..which i will never delete it no matter how less my phone space is.. but ya.. a lot of relative there..

ha.. this is a 'drawing' by baobei before she left for shanghai de first time.. er.. a bit.. childish and er.. there is no design at all but appreciated it yah.. ha.. and there' meanin in it so ya..

ah.. 20060224 Glamour Quest Finals whereby jane was crowned the queen.. hmm.. finally see her like grow up.. er.. a bit.. so ya.. touched.. o n i put this pic coz i thot got style.. so i put..

20060225 Debbie celebrated her bday at changi aloha! thou the pic combination a bit weird esp with zhimin and evvon in the pic.. hahaha!
20060227 Zhimin's 21st bday at party world civic centre! mus be happi huh.. and his eyes forever like tt... =.="

and the CerealTech Family!! quite some time never see anna alreadi.. hope she is getting on fine with chloe the baby~

not taken by me but kop from another blog.. ha..i wonder if this dog had become black color now alreadi or not.. throw here and there.. poor dog..

o and not forgetting the v stupid story that i once came up with when i m damn bored.. i wonder if i will ever do that again..

NYP most popular grp 9 special needs! who can forget them man!

and of coz d v irritating watermelon haha.. huifen that is.. die also cannot forget de.. hana hana i dun wan u la. u are 'vinegar pot' haha..

grp 9's class pic with pat tan! grppppp 9!!!

ha! wait for train also can take pic! this is grp 9! fun all d way.. this sem is soon over.. but ya.. if everyone makes effort to keep in contact den ya.. still can hav fun wat! go art fren together lor~

this is a pic taken in chinatown at nite where we chatted and ate lotsa tibits.. n i dunno if they noe i got this pic.. =X anyway.. both look engrossed in wat they were doing while me secretly taking pics.. well not realli secretly thou..

and a bimbotic pic of typography design at BK in cine... know who's there and who' not?

this was taken in nyp sch concert wif kaira or watever ra or ? aniwae.. we didn't realli wanted to get the cds but she like no one buy like tt.. damn poor thing.. so in d end we all all buy lor.. till now i think i onli heard the full cd er.. once. but she was polite and nice so anything la.. and i've posted sooo much till my robot is trying to kill me now.. shall stop and end my boring moments to concentrate on SP and ya.. bye bye.

should i ? maybe give it a try but..

《自我矛盾》
压抑过久的情绪因为发泄出来而换来尴尬
尴尬后可望的尽是恢复正常
过于正常却终久成为心中的一大郁闷
人类是爱自我矛盾的动物

i slept till noon den i got up to find my mum nagging at me and stuffs.. she insisted that i should see a doc for my skin prob, getting to bad sore throat and flu... she decided that i should go with her to yishun dunno wat clinic at ard 3pm. and i did as told.. reached there, clinic not opened.. so went another one, it says sat, sun and public holiday -> 630pm till 930pm. dotz. so we waited for 3 hrs walking here and there in that not say big chong pang.

i was sooo bored and pissed with mum that i threw a bit of temper.. partly becoz i'm still in a dunno wat mood.. for every ard 15 sentence that my mum says to me, i replied one word :" oor." and till a certain extent whereby i nearly fall asleep on the chair when she is still telling me abt her nearly strike but never strike 4D lottery stories. and she tried to 'compensate' me by buying 2 underwear and one slippers. dots.

finally 630pm. still not open. ask neighbour shop.. den they say they not opening at sat night one la.. mus come in the morning. F***. waste my time for nothing.. i didn't see a doc and i dun intend to see one alreadi. sick sick la.. at most pale a while den watever la.. go home face black black and i v tired still thou i sleep a lot... a lot.. a lot.. having headache..

but a buyer for some vcd requested to see me at night. so i went to town to sell her that vcd.. the buyer sounded like some 30 plus 40 yr old woman with weird slang/accent over d phone and i thot she will look ugly and auntie and old but it turns out to be a 22 yr old vietnam lady who is pretty and modern, look like the ruan mian mian in that ch 8 dunno what show.. and she is studying in SIM, came to singapore for 2 years alreadi.. hmm.. and she say i look small.. dotz.. and that she askes me to ask her out when free.. maybe she is jus being polite but yeah.. at least made my 5 min wait for her more worthwhile.

noe who i saw when i was leaving for town at ard 7? it's miss L. oh man.. it's miss L.. MISS L!! jane's 'fav' miss L. *faint.. i didn't see her but she came over and jus act like she is kicking me for not noticing her.. but hey.. it's so dark lor.. how to see and where got sooo qiao see her one? stress.. spoke a bit of 'ke qi' stuffs den act hurry to move off coz i dunno what to say alreadi..

and till now i m still not feeling ok.. realli believe that thinking too much hurts the brain but i can't stop myself from thinking still.... i m irritating and irritated.

i ton over at airport last nite to wait for amy's departure with bee ching, kaiyun, retarded lamb and supposedly, lynette... and i din realli sleep.. well.. maybe ard 30mins of nap or so after constant disturbing a retarded psn.. got tired finally den stop disturbing den sleep.. and realli fall asleep quite fast.. i think i woke up coz too cold or wat.. den that's it.. i have even deeper and darker eye rings now.. ugly..

aniwae.. amy left to US.. she's realli a nice teacher..and she says she realli like wat we did for her as the present (the photo album thing) and she says she see that we all got put in effort to do it and that she appreciates it and ya she like it a lot! so yeah! well done grp 9!! kudos!
but haiyo.. poor thing la.. she cried when leaving.. a rare sight i guess.. coz she is usually joking ard or critising ppl's work etc. darth soon' gone~ to US.

o n i am havin a flu plus sore throat, dry lips now. i jus got the flu which think may be either coz i too cold or some contagious psn spread to me.. *wink i'm sooo lucky, BEY BEY~ wasn't happi with something but nvm.. getting more and more short-tempered and den went for a short pool session after lunch. and den d rest all go home except audrey and me. we went to sch first and we chatted in the library for like quite long.. since 330pm chat till ard 5pm still not realli done.. haha! but hav to go for sp so ya.. chatted realli a lot..

did nothing for SP coz i was too tired to do anything and lazy. disturbed karen and siti a bit and they disturbed me back so ya.. and i jus saw jane's reply that invites some of my classmates etc for her 21st bday countdown celebration on nxt fri, 10/03 at her place. so those who wanted to go tell me arh.. i think she is refering to huifen, gerald, edwin, lynette, bee ching and kaiyun if i m NOT WRONG.. correct me if i not rite or who else u wan me to call or watever shit.

I M NOT GOING TO DO SP TONITE. I M GOING TO SLEEP. I M TIRED. I M PISSED. i m thinking too much..

i m here to blog for the sake of blogging coz i got nothing to do, and i dun feel like doing anything that is regarding studio proj.. i dunno why.. jus dun wan to do.. and... ?? i dunno wat i wan to say.

er.. eh.. o and i jus know something which i m not supposed to know and i wish i didn't know..
and since i got nothing to do.. i'll prob recommend something that i've been using to download http stuffs. ok, u know, sometimes when u dl something den u got disconnected or watever, u will jus be pissed rite. so with flashget, u can stop ur pre-ms or ms or post-ms. this application helps to resume dl when u ganna dc or er.. watever... and it's quite fast too.. can be used for multiple dl at one time.
so here's the link which i jus uploaded. no worries, no virus. available for 7 days.

http://s35.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0KXAMP85H6PR512LAA8WYI13JF

n i was so bored till i dig out some old clips to view again.. and i chanced upon this clip i took during christmas and i find wing quite funni.. the lalala thing.. thou v dark but can sense everyone so relax.. can see that baobei is still ok, wing getting a bit funni.. and jon was like lying on one side, xiao de dunno do wat wif her toes.. and they all a bit drunk..
d clip link i haven send to xiao de they all.. hor.. dl it here lor.. :

http://s35.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3VO7FT3D25IKF0HDLDQDC9NGOS

OH! NOT FORGETTING THIS!! haha.. this is a clip made for debbie's 21st bday using handphone camera.. starring jane, zhimin and me!! haha! camera man is wenhao! zhimin is the psn who shouted those camera take one thing and jane and me are the lead. haha.. it's a stupid story of jane stealing debbie's present and that i hav to go after jane to get it back. in d end what happen? *wahaha.. stupid.. realli dumb but fun~ we were bored and we find this interesting and fun so we did it for hours to catch the timing. jane and me jump until almost faint.. hahah! memorable~

here's d link if u all wan to see for er.. nothing.. it tells you that a QUEEN and a SAINT can look so dumb on camera.

http://s35.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=05PZIJK1TLYD912HSZOTDLMEJP

tata~ when i got nothing to do again den i will be here to er.. crap something out of nothing.