Grumble, Gossip
woah.. at 5pm sharp and is realli tt sharp.. everyone chiong to level 6 to hand in the SP work.. the whole design sch is like in chaos lor.. realli is chiong, scream, shout, run, rush.. all shit de.. omg.. !! it is like 5pm sharp den ms gail will lock the room den cannot hand in work le.. even if it is like 1 sec late or what.. omg... so many look lost when they were late.. and some even look like they wan to cry alreadi..

everyone's saying.. reality is so cruel.. either u are punctual or if not.. den all ur 3 weeks effort is like.. gone down the drain..haiz.. wonder what will happen to those who din managed to hand in on time.. Wendi and Deborah didn't.. so.. yar.. dunno what happen..
wendi reach jus ard 1 min or so later than 5 pm.. and her work was not allowed to be placed into the room. as for deborah.. worst.. at 5pm, she was at PS still.. printing or doing her work..

after tt.. most of us went to PS to kinda.. er.. celebrate that our studio proj is like finally kinda over!! haa! we had our dinner in ......................................... KFC!!! how.. er.. fantastic.. was tt.. duhz.. but den those chats we had.. kinda fun.. when the guys went to catch a night movie, kaiyun, nette and me went for a chat in the dunno what kayu toast shop.. drink kopi.. omg.. we seem so ah ma.. kaiyun, being the youngest, drank holilick*dunno if it is spelled like this*.. nette drank kopi with milk. got the aunty feel alreadi. as for me.. lagi worst.. i drank kopi-O... without milk etc.. no wonder i becoming so ah ma..

our talk lasts some time.. and it was damn funni.. gossip lor... about who.. haha.. abt hanson.. hahaha.. :P shall not say who is hanson.. hha.. still got one ger name also constantly being mentioned.. shall not say here also.. hahah.. :p lalala..

so now.. i m much more relaxed.. and happi.. :) i going for chalet soon.. yeah yeah yeah!! :) arh.. woOOOOOOOT! Muacks! i love it man!

Bye bye Sem 1 and Studio Project

heh heh.. yeah yeah man..
sem 1 will be over soon and so is the studio proj.. after this thursday, everything will be over..
so be4 it ends.. maybe.. i should like.. give a evaluation to it? haha...
den separate into diff sections for dun..

Lessons/stuffs learnt abt frens etc
1. D drawing and designing part.. lor..
2. Ms Amy can be late but not us.
3. Ms Irene is always looking so sotong, blur and sleepy.
4. Class guys will die if there is no arcade.
5. Huiwen likes Gerald and Gerald hates Huiwen.
6. Huifen likes to fart infront of me and Weilun.
7. Chun How drinks Bandung so often becoz he like pink color.
8. Weilun can make those drum sounds using his vocal.
9. BeiCheng completed Ghost Squad after 1 million visits to the arcade.
10. Audrey can make me run away covering my ears.
11. Hazel knows those CiNa oldies.. like LU BIAN YI KE RONG SHU XIA>>
12. Gary is so retarded and cold with his jokes.. enough to freeze me till i almost die.
13. Edwin is Soooo damn ah pek with those funni jokes.
14. Kaiyun can tell freaking freezing jokes as well lar.. should team her with gary.. oopz.
15. Yani loves bollywood movies and she can speak mandrain ok!
16. Marcus' way too thin and he likes IJ girls.
17. Zhiqun is glued to his gf
18. Joshua can cook spag lor! damn nice sia lar!
19. Deborah speaks for ants to hear.
20. Comic is the most essential part of Wendi.
21. Lynette onli knows how to eat in Cafe Cartel, Swenson, Jack's Place.. blah blah..
22. Jiawan (aiyo.. risky cannot say.. coz sometimes she got c.. ) er.. she is damn NICE lar.. =X okie i lied.. a bit here and there.. haha..
23. Weifang.. hmm.. scaring me..
24. Karen.. tt hamtaro.. shoot ppl without blinking eye
25. Siti or Ain or Ain or Siti is my pri sch fren's babysitter's daughter n she is also v retarded like jiawan...
Lastly, I am beginning to behave like a raccoon.

Wat did i gained from this Sem 1?
1. I learn some softwares
2. I made some frens.. some i think is quite good.. so far ok.. not givin me much probs.
3. I learn to be more determined
4. M more confident of myself.. :)

Wat did i lose during this sem 1?
1. time with some frens not from poly.
tt is what it matters most i guess... nothing much den tt le..

Some touching quotes from frens whom i got to know in poly which they may not rmb but i wun forget
1. In BK, when i said something like Nette and Jiawan they all r my sch mates or what.. den Tofu said something like.. eh.. it is fren ok, not sch mates.. :~~)
2. Joshua said to me, if BC make u angry or what, i will whack him up for u.. no one can bully my da jie :~)
3. Huifen said we mus be frank with one another so we can remain as good frens and i will be sad if nxt yr.. u r not ard with me le coz u going IM..but we can still chiong and piang together de.. :~)
4. Chun how said.. I really wanted someone like u to be my younger sis .. would u be my sis? can? :~)

okie.. enough mushy stuffs.. thanks to them for these little little moments.. they are remembered.. haha.. :)
YEAH!! *WINK wink! =D

Revamp

Well... jus changed the blogskin.. for er fun..
how was it? haha..
lala.. i think it look quite cute.. lala..
i ask qns n i replied myself.. lalalala...

well.. it is time for me to start my blog with another feel baz... d previous one seems to look a bit depress... so this new one!
ha!
more depressing.. *faints..
but kinda like it so nvm.. i dun care..
maybe someday i will change to some other feels.. but currently.. i will settle to tis.. actually i saw another one.. maybe i will change to tt at a later time..

but aniwae.. i din noe some are viewin my blog except think Tofu coz i m her loyal blog supporter also.. haha.. so i wrote watever i wanted to write at certain period of times.. and onli know recently tt.. yar.. some did view it.. u noe who lar.. eg. kaiyun lor.. esther lor..wing lar.. and of coz, i noe 'u' r viewing it..

so i got to let 'u' know here.. since u dun dare to call me and i dun dare to call u over the phone and even in msn lalala..
tat.. i dun blame u or what thing.. no worries..
both of us had changed and there's no one to blame.. but at least i hope that the bond will still be there.. and that.. if u hav anything... u wan let me know or watever.. u still can feel free to look for me..
dun worry if i will feel disappointed or what shit le.. that is not realli impt.. like wat zhimin and wenhao says..
i think we got to be true to our own feelings.. we hide too much last time.. always thinking that some things are best left not spoken coz it might hurt another's feelings but den in the end.. this is how d 8 of us ended up.. so got to be more relax.. we'll too serious sometimes le.. maybe coz we grow older le.. so we dun play and joke like what we did in sec sch lar.. those times we onli joke, play lala.. den after tt.. all our talks started to get more and more serious lala.. and we lack the fun in it.. if both of us find it hard to talk face to face or what.. den i tell u here lor.. blog is so open.. so dun say i nv take initiative huh.. all d way from sec sch i v intiative liao.. is onli this year that i get sick of it when it is always me to take initiative but den again arh.. if i dun do that.. when will u do tt?

rmb d evvon thing incident.. hah.. d 'mystery' was onli solved when we were in sentosa after reflecting on certain probs lala... i dun blame her coz i noe it might be becoz of me den she is doing some stuffs to u'll.. but nvm.. i still c her sometimes now.. and she is still d same.. crap with me.. and always flying ppl kite.. and den.. care for me lar.. and den she called me to tell me that Esther look so pretty now.. haa.. if Esther reads this point i think she will be damn happi..

den what else..o.. i actually got go ur blog c c also lar.. but i nv say anything there.. so lala.. nvm..
and Nike call me today and i nv pick up his call.. twice.. coz i slping.. dunno he call me for what.. normally if he call me.. onli got 1 reason, that is to get me to causeway point to meet him and zhimin coz they too free le.. and den they will ask me abt us.. lala.. i wonder is it this case again today.. but aniway.. like what i say.. i nv pick up his call and when i msg him, i think he went back m'sia alreadi so lala.. nvm.. kinda long nv c them also..

and hor.. dun say i nv say arh.. i OCT having holiday. if u v free or what den u noe what to do arh. dun say i nv hint or u scare of me arh.. 7th month over alreadi, i not tt scary unless u wan me to be.. got a lot of things to tell u.. but no chance.. n u got things to tell me.. but u dun dare.. until peiren told me a bit den i noe... hmm.. our thing actually v small but i dunno why so many ppl come in bet... haha.. but they come in bet with a good cause so lalala..

n...
also to other frens.. whoever it is.. seein this..
I WILL BE HAVING MY ONE MONTH HOLIDAY SOON!!
n i will be going for 1 chalets, 1 bday party and den i promise to go out with wingz they all..but i dun think i can go to the Perline they all tt gathering coz it clashes with one of the chalet and den also promise to go debbie hse and meet esther.. and den also to go ktv with huifen they all.. yday pri sch fren call me go out le.. wah.. 2 yr c 1 time like tt.. tt one mus go.. and den also to work in holi.. and also bimbo comin back from aust for holi so i got to go out with her also and den i haven go c Anna's newborn baby.. lala.. so my 1 month break not say v long.. so haha.. miss me de.. wan c me de.. all come tell me.. =D dun be shy lar... i v kind de.. =X

Exhausted

well.. this few weeks i've been busy with my studio proj stuff.. but m doin fine at d moment.. so ok.. yday a classmate came over to my place at ard 11pm coz he wanted me to teach him how to draw and stuffs like tt.. he had difficulties in doin the studio proj so i thot ok.. i could do and rush my painting today and help him yday nite.. c how.. i also dun wan any classmates to fail or what shit and he sounded so depressed.. so yar.. i agreed to let him come my place.

so what happened was that my bro din come home yday nite.. so we studied in his room instead of mine coz i got no proper table for drawin in my room plus it was too messy. and i started teachin him from ard 11pm till guess what.. ard 5AM.. finally at ard 5 plus AM i realli cannot tahan le, i fell asleep on my bro's bed. and him, continue to draw lor.. until ard maybe 6 plus den he also fell asleep with his head flat on d table.. haha!! too bad... but once i wake ard 7 plus Am.. gosh.. woke him and guess what? we continued drawing.. i m damn tired lor.. i rmbered i used to slp at 10PM sharp when i m in sec and jc lor.. but eversince i got into this course.. i dun realli have a proper slp.. maybe there is.. once in maybe a week or two.

as for this classmate, how did he perform? i would say.. he still need a lot of patience and practice.. main prob is that he can't shade and he finds it hard to visual some forms and shapes.. and he dunno where the light shine on etc.. he uses a 6B pencil and the strength he put in is like me using a HB pencil.. so i asked him to use more strength and be daring with some strokes.. den i realised he uses to much strength.. = ="!! tt is why it becomes so 2D and single tone and value thing.. but heng after much much 'lecturing' and i m frank with my comments.. din wanted to waste time go one whole big round tell him what he need to do.. he did show improvements and i m happi with that.. at least my time and effort spent is not wasted. but pls.. pray that he dun slack again if not nxt time i wouldn't be able to help him. after all, i m not a saint..

so after teachin him mainly shadin stuffs.. he left this morning ard 9Am.. and guess what?
i can't slp.. i need to rush my final draft digital painting coz tml i need to hand in to amy for final critique thingie.. so i straight on com and started painting without knowing what i m painting.. till now.. near 12pm. i m done with my painting but my brain is not realli functioning properly now..
i am jus exhausted.. bt i hav to reach sch by 830am tml.. so duhz.. exhausted..

den... while doing painting.. keep thinking of some friends... especially when i m having my meals.. had a chat with esther yday nite time.. appreciated it that she intiated the chat.. told me that she saw jane some days ago or what.. hmm.. ya.. come to think of it.. i haven been seeing them.. and also d fact that debbie is disappointed that some frens said they will turn up for her hse warmin bbq but den in d end they din turn up.. and i din go as well.. debbie says it is ok coz i already told her that most likely i can't go coz of my sch work stuffs... and she understands that. she wun blame me or what.. but i miss her le.. she is 4ever so understanding.. and i think i could never ever find someone else who is so nice to me le.. and yar.. esther and me will go debbie hse once i hav my holis.. and den.. maybe go esther place.. she cook for us to eat..

and i hav to say.. i still feel v bad that i din turn up for debbie's hse warming.. she's d closest fren i have.. and i din make it there.. hiaz.. i do rmb her tellin me in a swimmin pool be4 tt she will dote me coz she treat me like her real sis.. and she dun mind if she is not the one who i 'sayang'.. as long as she wanted me to know that she will be there for me den it's ok le..... i m realli stupid or retarded or what shit? how come it seems like i keep worry for someone who may not need me to worry for her and den neglect someone who actually treasures me more than anyone else.. except my mum lar..

i think there is something wrong somewhere... there's once a guy in d mrt station appearing from dunno where approached me and told me that i will be successful in my career etc. at first i thot he siao.. as in gila aka crazy.. coz i dunno him at all... but den i was shocked that he managed to say some things true abt me.. he look at me.. ask me 3 qns like dunno what thing winter what what blah blah, what will i chose tt kind etc lar.. den after tt he straight concluded that.. i will be rich in d future.. *dah da i hope so.. thou i not sure* and that the onli thing that is appearing to affect me most is in the relationship part. and that refers to relationship bet not onli love lar.. but also family and friends. and he said that i will care too much for friends and scare of losing them.. i will treat them so much nicer than my family.. he advises me to not to do that.. and says that family should be the most impt part of me, not friends.

i hav to say that family will 4ever be the most impt to me no matter what is going to happen in it.. d difference is that.. towards friends.. i may show it that i care.. but towards family.. i will keep it in my heart.. and of coz.. thru out my 20 yrs of living.. i nv tell my parents and brother any of my troubles.. coz.. so what if i tell them.. if that will cause them to worry or what.. den what for? so some might think by doing that, i m not interacting with my family.. but den again.. i did interact with them.. but jus tt i wun tell them stuffs that are troubling me.. jus tell them happy stuff will do. the onli thing that parents hope for is that their kids are happi den they will be happy.. so i thot.. ya.. i will keep talking to myself den.. or my bolster abt my troubles.. maybe someday my bolster will reply me.. ee... how scary..

eh.. i m way out of point.. hav the habit of drifting away.. den o ya.. i was exhausted.. no.. i m exhausted.. rite.. so i got to slp rite.. ok.. i will go slp.. dun think too much.. stop thinking..
lalalalalalala.... i m getting older.. my hair's dropping.. i m going to be bald.. my teeth will drop soon.. lalala.. i will be a funni ah ma..
lalal.. zzzzzZ..Z...

Raccoon aka Procyon Lotor aka Masked Bandit

I got this for my studio project and man.. i'm going to place it in Clarke Quay doing what? shit? well.. i'm still thinking.. d for the past few days.. i've been constantly drawing like mad.. to fill up wat? 60 A4 size pages? and still mus hav a lot of research and detail drawings.. man.. i'm not so power.. i wan to slack leh.. but cannot leh.. hiaz..

mon, went to c amy.. den she say not enough style, techniques and color.. so i went to lib again to get more of these researches..

tues!!! went ZOO!! i think the previous time i went there was kinda like soooooo many damn years ago.. 10 years? quite tiring thou.. when i was trying v hard to concentrate drawing some simple structures of a raccoon, i jus kinda get irritated by those flies, mosquito, worms, shit shit shit stuff.. i cannot concentrate lor!! and what? stared at the raccoon for like dunno how many hours... blah blah.. and the raccoon kept slping.. so i can onli draw them slping.. but they look damn cute lar.. those eyes.. o god.. i think i like nice eyes.. be it human beings or animals.. or shit.. jus anything with nice eyes, i will like it..coz i think it tells a lot of things.. jus one look in the eye... i will get the feeling..

and it finally rained halfway thru.. i was happy for a moment coz i thot if it rains, then it means i cannot draw.. meaning i can slack a while!! but den... i was totally wrong.. we still hav to show Ms Gail some drawings at ard 2 plus.. damnit.. so what? continue draw under the pelican side shelther while waiting for the rain to stop lor..
everyone was like damn sticky and tired at the end of the day la.. when i went home, first thing i did is to bathe. =P yeah!! den i smell ok again! :) happy!

wed, went to Clarke Quay.. for some more location research, photography, drawing.. most of the classmates got real sun burn coz we had to draw under the sun.. but i din thou i hoped i did.. coz i went there much much later den them.. i was slacking at home lar.. be4 i finally decided that i had to get my butt out of my bed.. den walk here and there... draw, take pic.. etc lor.. come back home, DRAW again.. and i dun realli like drawing lor.. once in a while draw is ok.. but when it gets too much.. i will get sick of it... and i m sick of it now..

d CQ trip was not bad.. whole class play together except for one moment in the foodcourt whereby 2 classmates had a 'fight'.. everyone had a shock i guess... and we had to 'cool' d 2 of them down.. hmmm.. so.. this is a first time tt classmates had a quarrel i guess.. hope it will be d last time as well..

ok.. be4 we know it.. it was night time.. so CQ nightlife! woahoo.. it's a mus go and c thing i guess.. d atmosphere is there.. and not forgetting the girls at the Hooters' Bar.. wearing damn short shorts and tight fitting clothes tat showed their 'stuffs'.. wat if i place my raccoon there touching their ass? will amy scold? haha.. hhmmm.. maybe i can do that? haha.. OR making my raccoon wear those short shorts? but raccoon has got no boobs.. plus they are too hairy to be sexy.. hmmm... think abt it again..
and i would like to try the bungee jump thingie thing there.. but it costs 35 bucks for 1 ride and d ride is like 10secs? okay, i will give it a thought again.. not realli worth it..

thurs, stayed at home whole day.. eh.. no.. accompanied a fren to c doc.. but tt's all, den went home to continue rushing my journal.. got so tired and my back's realli pain.. mama put 'tokohai' on my back.. look damn ugly and smell like a ah pek or ah ma.. but i dun care..

today!!! went c amy again lor.. and she say i need more cartoon drawings.. detail drawing should be enough le.. and den.. i need to change my ideas for the 5 compositions.. mus c that whatever i draw is in clarke quay... but den again.. i thot during d briefing, the example ms gail showed is like a elephant sitting in a coffeeshop drinking herbal soup. and she said it was in chinatown? stupid lar.. from where can we c that it is a coffeeshop in CHINATOWN? it jus look like any normal kopi tiam in woodlands, amk, cck and watever shit place.. and she tell us tat is from CHINATOWN? i think she had nv been to any other kopi tiams in SG.. soooo bloody hell &^$^&%...

but den ok.. i accept and agreed wif what ms amy says.. so i gotta work on it again...
so what can my raccoon do in clarke quay??? if let raccoon touch hooter's bar's girls' backside and amy say tat one ppl will thot is in geylang and not CQ den how?? aiyo...
i dunno lar.. later den think.. i go slp now.. afternoon nap.. i need 12 hr of slp.... hibernating..

Studious VS Slack

Woah.. yday was a day whereby i did nothing but slack.. ha... went sch jus to hand in the DF ass 3.. by rite there's a color theory tutorial but den.. they din tell us tt onli those who need to redo need to turn up so d whole class went.. ha.. but nvm lor.. since we were all in sch aniwae..
den Pat tan talk to us a bit on d color thingie to clear our doubts etc.. those what analogous, monochromatic.. complementary.. blah blah blah.. but aniwae, nice to c pat tan again after she went for attachment.. nxt time will hav to wait till nxt sem den maybe will c her le..

den still.. so early.. some intend to go jamming.. n i'm not interested in that.. 1 decided to go fly kite by himself.. er.. thou i dunno if he realli went in d end.. n i m not interested in that too.. den d rest decided to go home and sleep till night time tt kind.. and i m not so interested in tt yday too.. not TAT tired.. so.. got to find something else to do of coz! nette says wanted to go out with me and fang so ok arh.. i dun mind.. go slack somewhere lor..

den i thot hmm.. call jiawan ask her wan go not.. den Eh!!.. she say ok.. :) den jiu SET! go jalan jalan.. den realli is jalan.. jalan until fang's leg lan.. who ask her to go play tennis be4 jalan.. hah..
but den those times jus sitting down.. doing nothing is quite nice too.. except for one particular moment when somebody walk past den farted.. woa........)@%$^%$&.. where got ppl fart in d foodcourt de??!! ppl eating lor.. blah blah.. but i thot that was funni too.. esp when i smell it den i jus turn den saw jiawan turning also.. den both got that WAH LAO look.. haha.. immediately laughed.. cannot tahan.. what a timing..

so i slack from morning to la la la.. 11 plus pm den i reached home.. slacker sia..

so TODAY!! fresh new day! brand new me! i woke at er.. 10am.. den ha.. din have my breakfast.. i brush teeth blah blah den set go woodlands civic lib le!! do my research for studio proj! Raccoon~~~ Procyon Lotor~~Masked Bandit~~
but den.. so boring.. i sat with 3 other 'dunno who are they ppl'.. 2 guy studying chemistry.. think from dunno what jc.. d notes v familiar.. den another ger studying history.. while me, digging for reference books... place one whole pile on table as if i own them.. blah blah.. den started writing like some crazy fellow.. drawing shit shit and shit.. den finally raccoon.. at first tt 2 guy were like peeping at what i m doin lor.. nv c ppl draw be4 meh? or i looked weird? coz i kept walking here and there.. one moment go print things.. one moment disappeared to some hidden section.. children section.. lalala~~

ssooooo damn studious sia.. i cannot tahan myself also.. when did i become so studious.. and guai.. i wasn't like this.. not when i m in sec or jc.. i skipped lesson den.. throw temper on a f^^king teacher.. slacked.. onli when it comes to interhouse games etc den i m damn hardworking.. running here and there etc.. i think this year is the year when i m damn 'hardworking' until i dun feel like i m ME.. or maybe it's jus d other side of me.. serious me.. well, not realli also.. i still crap a lot.. but every moment, i m thinking lor.. thinking of something.. haha.. so actually... i M SERIOUS!! realli lar...... dun suspect that......... :(

n tml i will go lib to do research whole day also.. think tml huifen is joining me.. tml will be earlier.. opens at 10.. shall wake at... er... 9? if can... hope so.. pray hard.. i can wake..

Good students wear proper shoes :)

Ring!!!
"Eh!! u in sch??"
"Er.. yar.."
"Eh!! can lend me your shoes?"
"Huh? Oooor.. ok lor.. "
"Where u?"
"Library lor"
"Who's there with u?"
"oo.. weilun and joshua lor.. "
"no girls?"
"Er.. no.. arh.. "
"OOOOo... ^%(*&(^ &%(*%(&**WAN OR NOT? *&((%*$ (*must be shouting to Hamtaro plus big eyes.) Eh! i call u back later!"
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Ring!!
"Eh!! u at library arh?"
"Yar... "
"I come look for u borrow shoe hoh.."
"Oor, ok lor.. "
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

hehe... a conversation bet a good girl and a 'bad' girl... =P so cute.. hahah!!

well.. this is how i started my day in d library without my shoe.. den i also had to put my socks in my bag without plastic bag.. aiyooo.. coz.. d bad ger ganna from yang tien.. hahaha.. cannot sit for test unless she change her slippers to a pair of proper shoe. =P OOOOOO BBBB!! c lar.. wear slippers lar.. hhaah.. so mean of me.. thou i also got wear slippers to sch.. =D but i dun wear it on test dates. haha.. clever me.. stupid who?? oopz.. =X and o yes.. huifen also ganna.. she worst. she got to wear a hamster's slipper. =X

den i went for class.. Gerald spotted my 'new slippers' so first thing he commented was that "Eh! woah.. u got another Ah Ma shoe arh?"
yar right.. haha.. it doesn't belongs to me.. it's Jiawan's. but anyway, it is ah ma.. hahhahahaa... evil me.. oops.. ok lar.. i dun think the slipper is ah ma lar.. jus tt probably becoz i wear it so Gerald purposely say it is ah ma.. pls lor.. i only got one pair of slipper that is AH MA n i like it coz it is AH MA.. den from den onwards, whatever my things.. they say is AH MA's. shit them.. haha... jk jk lar..

den woah.. exchange shoe during tutorial sia.. i still like kid put up hand ask ms josephine.. "sorry, can we go to the toilet?"
*den i thot.. eh.. i should say 'ladies' instead of 'toilet' but nvm.. big deal.. as if she will deduct points for my comms skill..
den woah.. within like 2 min? den i am back in d classroom with ms josephine and classmates looking so amazed that we can urine like so fast.. i think i smiled so fake... den all noticed my slipper's gone and DAH DA! one trip to toilet makes my shoes come back to me! So... everyone's laughing and ms josephine still look confused... i managed to say "soli lar.. haha" to her.. den think she realised what went wrong and she laughed as well.. :D so it's ok!

after that... went to wait for amy soon.. in order to take back our DF assignment 2.. and SHIT!!! i got C... SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT!! haha... i had the whole class telling me what they are surprised, dun believe me till i showed them d result etc.. den 'console' me, say a lot got C also etc lar.. thou i wasn't crying and nothing lor.. jus er... hiaz.. i got C like tt lor.. haha! coz tt time when we hand in this assignment, only got 5 ppl got approved by amy soon. de rest hav to redo.. den i'm one of the 5.. but.. hiaz... d other 4 is chun how, weilun, huifen, audrey i think.. den they got A or A-.. AMY!!!! why don't u reject my work??!!! den i can redo den maybe better... or worst? but AMY!!!!! but ok lar.. think i also lazy to redo.. =X

den go Mac Lab.. TT BAD GIRL and Hamtaro laughed at me.. =( esp tt Hamtaro.. haha.. wan die arh?
funni neh.. d Hamtaro shoot ppl is 'direct shooting' de. den d bad girl is go one whole damn big round den wah! SHOOT! haha... both got impact sia! haha.. should hav thrown her slipper into d toilet bowl first be4 returing.. haha! and den Huifen also.. keep suaning me.. coz i got C.. haha.. in d canteen.. she was like.. "Eh!! u finally got C arh?!! Hahaha!! YEAH!!" shit her.. hahaha... of coz i know she playing lar.. i wun get angry for this also.. we're used to this.. so i jus shoot her back lor.. say what i got C coz i haven show power yet. once i show, wha.. that's it.. haha! all can go home le.. haha.. *is crap lar.. i not so power..

den i ate damn big Pizza which is like so damn full lor.. i can't finish.. Edwin challenged me to finish it.. if i finish, he give me $50. but den in d end, of coz he nv give me $50 lar! coz i know he wun lar.. say say onli.. i also wun take from him lor.. but i din realli finish it as well.. it is damn big lar.. d damn pizza is not nice somemore.. big and not nice, who can finish it? maybe someone who's a damn big eater.. someone who seems to be able to eat the whole world up and den still feel hungry like those 7th month come out one.. Eh.. how come suddenly Joshua appears in my mind??? hahah.. oooooopsz... shhhh....

den.. Joshua told me audrey and him took ard 30pics each of me when i am eating?!! what?? when did they do tt? and there is video clip somemore.. they are like sitting on d other end lor.. i eat also take picture.. for what? *faint... as if they watching monkey eating like tt.. invade my privacy.. hahaha.. as if i some sort of STAR.. =P but nvm lar.. as long as they dun burn it or pin it to the wall and draw on it or what shit can le.. but mus send me.. haha.. c how silly i look.. well i always look silly and stupid on photos..

den hor.. eh.. i tml got test neh... haven finish studying yet.. but can come here crap means.. i slacking a bit hor.. i left with 2 chpts.. but den tml still got 5 more hr to study be4 test... so i think is ok lar.. :P can afford to slack aaaaa bit... den i still hav to change a bit for my DF greeting card.. tt is by tml hor... i haven print my media journal presentation out hor.. i haven practise drawing face yet hor.. aiyo.. i got so many havens hor.. hmmm... ok ok.. better go do.. bye bye..

Reality suxs... shit..

ok.. i dun like.. dun like to accept realities. but i accepted it anyway. fact is my father is again not talking to anyone of us becoz of a stupid thing. he failed to had his passport renewed coz my brother and i din tell him that his POSBank acct nos should not be filled onto the form coz they need debit/credit card no. not bank acct. so he got mad when his form got rejected. shit..

he din scold my bro n me but he threw his anger at mum. shit him.. his temper is getting worst each day.. n he drinks more and more.. from 4 cans a day till now, 8 cans a day and still craving for more. all the money had to go into his stomach i guess. the thot of buying sleeping pills or what to mix it in his drinks occurs to me. i wonder if i make him have diahorrea or what from drinking.. will he stop drinking den? but would i dare to do it? i dun think so.. what if something happens.. but i felt like doing so.. i have to control my thots..

mum says maybe one day when something happen to him den he will learn his lesson.. well.. i doubt so.. unless it is something really serious like my grandma. thou i dun hope tt day will come but... somehow... looking at the situation now.. it is so hard to say.. hav i given up my hopes on him? i dun like this feeling.. shit.. i shall c..........

apart from tt shit.. other stuffs are fine at d moment.. my sch work is quite ok.. within my control i would say.. bt i missed out a lot on other stuffs.. time with debbie etc.. n i haven visited Anna since she gave birth to a baby girl, Chloe.. hiaz..

den what else is happening? jus tt d jue dui Superstar had ended lor.. Everyones' talkin abt it so yar..well, Weilian won. congrats to him ba.. thou i prefer Kelly.. coz of her singings and performance.. but i dun think.. they should have let Weilian to get into the finals.. not becoz of his disabilties.. not tt... is it jus that.. i think this would cause him more harm den good.. thou now he won, but how long can this last? what if it is like the william hung case? it is like william hung is popular coz ppl says he is brave etc lar.. but look at him now. where is he?

and now.. in Sg, how long can weilian last? if he din managed to maintain his fame or what.. he will go back to busking.. well.. that would cause him a lot of trouble too. he wouldn't be able to be like what he used to be thou i read that he enjoys busking.. and den, Play Music signs Champion, Universal signs the runner-up. does tt means getting a runner-up position is better than the Champion? coz Universal is a more established music company with sooooo many good/popular singers like Karen mok,Jacky Cheung, Jolin Tsai, Energy.. etc.. den Play music.. er.. Chai Chun Jia, Zhang Dong Liang and Ocean Ou de Yang. that's d only 3 i know.. but den not popular.. so.. ? winning d top position a good news to Weilian's fans? it is like a tactic to push the ratings higher and get more ppl to call in so that the respective organizers etc can earn more money.. so when weilian won.. i somehow pitied him.. leading a simple life is very good le.. but he wouldn't be able to lead a simple life anymore in the future.. i guess..

ok.. enough of superstar thing.. to side track from my shit feelings.. i'm not studying now.. no nothing.. should i jus slp and den study tml.. yar... maybe.. c how it goes..