Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to my baobei~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!


woot!! Today is your birthday arh.. so hmmm.. hope you will be a very happy person.. don hide too much of your feelings and also don er do wrong stuffs? haha.. you get what i mean lar. u noe, everyday is a brand new day so no matter how sucky your 'yesterday' is, u got to live on with it and find new meanings in ya life. Look at your baobei who's still alive and kicking. Muahaha


remember the first time we met? hahah it was in the kbox lar!! and i din even really know you den u started singing out loud to me and everyone else who were there lar..somemore still got expressions machiam mtv style lar so yea, left a deep impression. more and more going-outs resulting in me becoming ur baobei. i thot wing was the one who first said that i will be her baobei den how come become like i'm ur baobei den she is my one nite stand and then she is your nv peng you? complicated. doesn't matter. and u're de most mushy fren i have lar.. *goosebumps. ya la ya la ya la ai ni lar... pukes..


what other mushy stuffs?
hmmm... ya.. really appreciated it that whenever i'm feeling down or whatever lar.. u're always there and i mean really over there (shanghai) haha.. listening to me talk lar.. over msn or skype that is. and ya.. i'm still keeping that 'baobei' song u sang for me so when i'm sad can listen to it lar.. den i also sang for u that 'baobei' song in the ultimate cutie voice lar..very hard to get one okay! hahahahahah.. when u're not happy also can listen lar. won't puke one. too nice already.


the sometimes when i am busy or in a bad mood, my skype msg to u will be like very short and feeling-less lar.. haha.. those 'ok', 'oor', 'ya' that kind de lar.. i noe u understand lar.. so yea.. because i close to you mah.. hahah.. tat y so straightforward.. =X hope u don mind.. bleahs~ i tired mah...


ok.. er thou i didn't noe u for very very very long.. but yet we can click and i'm ur sun, u're my sea rmb? kinda lame but yea.. hi SEA~ O and oh ya.. we hor.. like long distance relationship (mean friendship and the baobeiship) lar.. but den whenever u come back like once in a yr or whatever, we will surely meet and glad to say, i don feel the distance between us. so i guess we don have to worry how much we get to see other but focus on the quality of time spent together ba. i guess that goes the same for the others.


then.. jiayou for ur studies.. ur coming SAT, ur health.. hopefully u can come to SG for the uni course u wanted etc.. den return back to ur country to fa zhan lar.. taiwan better.. more open, more market plus ur family over there.


haiyo i also dunno wat to say liao lar... jus er.. ni yao kai xin lar.. that is the most impt thing le lor.. jie xai lai de ri zi jiu hao hao de guo, fan shi bu yao xiang tai duo, zhe yang zi hui bi jiao kai xin. na xie you de mei de jiu sui feng piao qu huo cheng dao tu li hao le, bu yao guan ta de. ran hou jiu shi ma.. sheng ri yao chi liang li hong ji dan! haha.. wo bu zai ni de sheng bian ni jiu jiao ni mama zhu mi fen and the ji dan gei ni chi lar. zai lai ma.. jiu shi.. wo men da jia dou ai ni, bu yao fang qi, bu yao dan xin~ wo men yi zhi dou zai ah.. wo dang ran ye shi yi zhi dou zai.
ai ni wor!!!


P/S: Happy belated birthday to LYNETTE and GERALD!!! =X

a simple conversation with bc triggers some thoughts.. some memories.. and urge to write this down in my blog so that i can continue to keep on reminding myself to perform some actions..


he asked me.. did your parents buy you birthday cake every year?
i said.. not really.. since i gain knowledge on what the hell the world is about and that i am a human being, i've never gotten a cake from my family for my birthday EXCEPT for one year. it was my 18th birthday.. my mum bought a slice of $2 choco cake from the market and says that it will be my birthday cake cum breakfast. =] i was really very happy den.. coz that was the first cake.. and more imptly, she remembered my birthday and i know she always do.


he went on to talk more about his family and ask about my family. i admit that i'm very... okay.. quite scared of my father. thou he is very small in size but he has this feeling that makes me afraid of him. i dunno.. he seldom talks to us and he hates his own birthday. i don even to call him father.. till recently i started calling him pa after hearing audrey say that i can try calling my father to 'break-the-ice'. okay.. some weeks ago, i call him 'papa' and he smiled. my mother told me secretly that my father says that he's gonna strike lottery or something coz i called him papa. i think i've been quite cold to my father that i ought to change. he's my father and whatever he did before, i should forgive and try to forget.


the talk went on and on.. the thing that keep appearing in my mind is.. my closer ones (frens and whoever) are leaving me.. some days i would just lie on my bed and think what if i wake up and i can't find my mother anymore? i dun wan her to leave me and i won be able to take it.. yet how can i throw temper at her sometimes when i am mad? i guess that is the way to keep reminding myself to threat her nicely while she's still with me. someday.. she will leave.. and that will be the day i lose almost everything..


furthermore, i will never forget the times when my mum asked me who will i follow if she and father were to go separate ways. i said i will follow my mum.. instead of huggin me in her arms, she screamed at me and says tat i should follow father and she don wan me, she don wan my brother. she can live with my auntie and have all the freedom without taking care of us. father says he don wan us as well.. ya rite.. i think i cried and ran to my room and started emo-ing thinking that no one wants me. while the feeling of not being wanted by ur most loved ones hurts but when i grow older.. i guess i know why mum says that.. and i'm glad she said that she don wan me den.. muahahha.. my mum has got illness den, can't work and has never worked before. father is the only one with financial ability to support us thru the education and whatever. its not that she thinks that we will be a burden to her..but rather.. she thinks that she will be a burden to us.. hiaz.. too bad i din understand that when i was younger so for some period of time i used to think that my mum don love me. haha.. that's silly.. which mother don love their kids?


that is the main reason why i keep asking bc to treat his family better and whatever. communication is definately impt to maintain a relationship.. dun wait till lose already den start to regret.. and that's something that is very wrong with most of the ppl.. take things/people for granted.


and.. got to say something.. i was thinking.. some days ago.. what did i do to deserve that kinda treatment from some close friends? i'm seriously touched.. by those esp sec sch frens... some really.. doted me so much that i feel that i'm like a kid being so well taken care of.. its like the sky drop i also dun need to worry, coz i know who will be there to die with me or save me. either lar. hhaha... should i say names out? okay lar -> deb, jane, esther, evvon, pr, min, baobei and tweety. those not named.. er.. not that i dun like u.. hahah but rather its jus that.. it's not yet till the extend whereby er.. we share very private issues. hahah.. work harder for those who want to be in my list next time. winks~ =]


deb dun need to say. everyone knows how she treats me. jane also dun need say lar. e-tho.. she never say but i noe she cares too. telephathy. evvon.. wah this one.. i these few days very very very touched by her lar.. goosebumps.. she doted me a lot.. peiren i very long never see her already but i noe she cares for me because of the content of a simple msg she sent to me during my 21st bday. min d guylian.. haha.. waye! he still 'sayang' my head like he did in sec sch ah? and not forgetting the piyo-piyo in his hse.. touched to see that lar.. baobei is someone who loves me too much to hurt me, sounds so like long dist-relationship wif a girl. duhz, it will be too weird and funny if we 2 were to les each other, faint. tweety.. hahhaa.. i'm actually very surprised that she's be in my list of very close frens. i've known her for only like er 1 and 1/2 a year lar.. shortest of em all. we've gone thru heart-sharing session etc and 'true' temper showing session (hahaha) to reach the stage we are at now and also the constant reminder from her that whatever happens, i will still have her. it makes me feel more secure? haha.. and my assurance to her too..


ahahahah wat a damn long entry... muahah and i still love this world. now.
kisses everywhere to those i love!!! Lalallalala~~

Dino missing in Action

Booohoo~~ escape in escape causes my little dino handphone chain to be missing. Sad sad..
Actually could be easily bought again by buying a m1 call card or something. it's the free gift lar.. but because it's very cute and i like it wat.. aniwae, i kope from my fren de.. =[ lost.
Dino dino where are you?

Sheesh.. fever and bad sore throat now.. i can't seem to swallow anything.
Suspect that Sajiao spreaded it to me..
Ppl fall sick during SP period. I fall sick during holiday. =.="

Oh and i miss you all so much~

YEA!! Hmmmm this feeling is quite good isn't it? i mean, a gathering with some old friends at causeway point.. not that they are old, but they are the ones who were with me when i'm going through my puberty period.


For those who didn't get it.. well, i just came back from a small 'wrss sec 4-1' gathering aka dinner consisting of jane, debbie, e-tho, evvon, gay lian zhi min and me. haha.. min is the only guy lar.. neh mind, i think we treat him like 'sister' already. Anyway, one of the first thing he said to me is :" Eh, ur blog hor recently got vulgarities lar.. last time you don scold de lor" shakes head. Well, i got to have my own set of explanations for this.

Firstly, you should try interacting with my fellow grp 9-ers. Out of 10 sentences the guys spoke, 8 of it consist the word F***. I will get influenced A BIT lar.. BUT, i don't usually scold unless i am depress or very annoyed or what. and if i were to say that.. it means i'm really not happy with something lar.. so yea.. Okay, i do agree that last time i'm such a good girl who don spoke a single word of F*** and i'm very very very shy that caused me to have very very very few guy friends except like min, wenhao and nike. something like that lar.. the rest all not close, just classmates. However, as you grow older.. there is less fear when interacting with people of the opposite sex thou sometimes, i still feel weird but i don say. Muahahaah.. pls lar, i can hide my emotions somehow lar. now, i have more guy friends but having more guy friends doesn't mean anything to me either. i still prefer having a quality friend den quantity friends, guy or gal doesn't matter. i'm not a sexist.
okay okay okay, i shall try my very best to not write any F*** word in my blog if not min is going to nag at me again some other day. Arghh..


Back to the dinner thing. It was quite fun gossiping about anything and everything lar.. esp those of the other people who were not present. O O and the very funny thing is still about evvon and min. Muahaha the 'qing mei zhu ma' couple who quarrels since day one they know each other till now. I hope min's gf don view my blog and i assume so. Er.. ok.. jus in case.. evvon has got nothing to do with min. BUT, we just love to make fun of the two of them. They are innocent. It's OUR fault. =X


And the rest are still the same.. nothing ever changes or something has changed, but not the bond bet us. Hmmm.. i still feel very comfortable with them. We don't need any time to break the ice after not seeing each other for months etc. Love'em. D next time we see each other should be on the 7th Oct which is~~~~~ DEBBIE'S ROM!!!! we were all excited wor!! she's such a good girl and whoever marries her will be very xing fu!!! Congrats to Fabian!! Good choice, nice catch! haha..


O, and i'm amazed by how much e-tho can eat.. er.. she very very hungry. I thot seventh month er.. over? or not yet? Not forgetting that jane is very disappointed that her salmon is it? very thin ah.. hahaha.. and keep grumbling. nah.. and er.. i thot fay and crystal coming? anyway, heard that crystal is very stressed with her studies.. so yea..


what else? very long never see peiren as well.. heard she's busy with her work.. service line is like that.. have to work even at night or something lar.. lesser personal time? i guess so. Maybe that's why i din want to be service line. i hope to have more personal time.. for friends.. family etc. I don wan to spend most of my time earning money and den die without spending it with my love ones. Muaha wat am i talking?


aniwae.... i'm feelin good~~~ coz i've spent time with my very close friends.. Muahaha.. these are ones i can't do without and i know they will be there for me whenever i need them. The trustable ones.. Of coz still got a few who is not here today with us lar..


WORKAY~ happy happy~ a happy week.. kinda.

Hey hey I did this because I am bored!! Ahahahahaha.. Really very very very bored lar.. and before I go to IMM with the mountain lamb who has never been there before, I shall do this and post it. Mainly, craps. I’m bored what. Why is my life so boring at this stage? Ah… holiday.


1. Full name: Lim Dan Ni
2. Name backwards: iN naD miL (sounded like a malay name)
3. Were you named after someone: Nope, not that porn star Danni okay..
4. Meaning of name: Big breast? Well, I’ve got it anyway. Jkjk..
5. Nickname: Ah ni, ni ni, Dandan, xiao dan, auntie, cutie, ah bu, ah mah, baobei , lan ni, da neh, teh ni and not forgetting, toopid. Whoosh~
6. Screen name: toopid
7. D.O.B: 30th May 1985.
8.Place of birth: here lar.
9. Nationality: here lar.
10. Current location: here lor.
11. Star Sign: Gemini
12. Religion: Taoist + self-declared free-thinker some time ago.
13. Height: 15.. er 3cm.. Those who are thinking “so short” de, u watch out arh!
14. Weight: 15Kg. I mean my boobs. o.0”
15 . Shoe size: 4.
16. Hair colour: black. I love black hair. Oriental.
17. Eye colour: black, white and red. Blood vessels lar.
18. Who do you look like: some say mother, some say father, a lot say JJ Lin. Duhz…..zzZzz..
19. Innie or Outtie: Middle-tie.
20. Leftie or rightie: both-tie.
21. Gay, straight, bi or others: straight then bi then straight then triangle then curve then angular rhen huh? Eh I cannot be gay coz I got no tool. Uh-hur?
22. Best friends: When it’s best then it has got to be just one, meaning that there shouldn’t be a ‘s’ behind the word ‘friend’. Okay, answer is I dunno. I’ve got some close ones but for the word ‘best’… I dunno how should I classify it.
23. Best friend you trust most: Hmmm…
24. Favourite pals: too many. Popular people are like tat.
25. Best friend of opposite sex: no one ba? Used to be zhimin but now he’s sort of brother le so not best friend that kinda thing lar. Plus with her gf ard.. Muahhaaha, better don best friend arh.. I dun wanna ganna like ****. =X
26. Best buddies: wat’s d diff with qns24?
27. Boyfriend or girlfriend: Eason lor. My boyfriend~~ Wilber also neh~ =X
28. Crush: by car or by bus?
29. Parents: this one cannot lie ah. Goh Kheng Muey and Lim Oh Son. My father’s name very kuku hor? lim OH SON. Muahaha.
30. Worst enemy: hmm… no one ba.. just dun make me feel disgusted can already.
31. Favourite online guy: NOT the hard gay.
32. Favourite online girl: NOT the hard les.
33. Craziest friend: I think it’s Maggie. Her screw a bit loose.
34. Advice friend: Jane? Baobei? Tweety? I think… it’s got to be.. myself.
36. Person you cry with: I usually cry alone.
37. Any sisters: nope.
38. Any brothers: 1
39. Any pets: got. I got one lamb. But that lamb sometimes becomes dog. o.0”
40. Any disease: Hair lost.. sobz..
41. Pagers: Sorry, I very high-tech okay.
42. Personal phone line: ya.
43. Cell phone: Uh-hur.
44. Pool or hot tub: hot shower.
45. Car: Eleven.
46. Your personality: lovely, kind, innocent, independent, pure, cute, friendly, warm, caring, sweet, gentle, HUMBLE and the list goes on.
47. Driving: In the carpark of national stadium. Illegal driving lar.
48. Room: hotel 81.
49. What's missing: my bra.
50. School: jps, wrss, pjc den nyp.
51. Bed colour: yellow and red. Say out loud, I’M HOT.
52. Relationship with parents: good and not bad.
53. Believe in yourself: Thank you.
54. Believe in love at first sight: Maybe not. It’s the character that will make me like someone I guess. Looks don’t work. Okay, works for a while only.
55. Good listener: Me! I listen to Yes 93.3 and I’m good. Duhz.
56. Get along well with parents: yea.
57. Save email conversations: Some.
58. Pray: sometimes. And if I can’t shit I will say amitofu pls make me shit.
59. Believe in reincarnation: Ya..
60. Make fun of people: Ha.. NO, no, I don’t make fun of people. How can I do that? Haiyo u all mean biatch and bastood.
61. Like to talk on the phone: Depends on who is it.
62. Want to get married: Should be ba.
63. Like to drive: yea but no car.
64. Motion sickness: hur? Means sit inside the car den will feel dizzy is it? I got a bit lar.
65. Eat stem of broccoli: NNNNNOOOO vegge sucks. It’s tasteless. Meant for rabbits.
66. Eat chicken with fork: ah bor with asshole ah?
67. Dream in colour: Ya but not wet.
68. Type with your fingers on home role: Huh?
69. Sleep with stuff animals: Eh ya..
70. Next to you: my bed
71. On the walls of your room: dust.
72. On your mousepad: never use mousepad.
73. Dream car: Jeeps, family car. Lexus. Ah-ha. Audi. Ah-ha. Mercedes-Benz M-Class ML350. Ah-ha. I used to like convertibles but not now because I think family cars are more practical.
74. Dream date: 30th Feb in whichever year.
75. Dream honeymoon spot: An igloo in Iceland where we can just make love. MUahahha ok ok jk jk jk jk.. I’m really kidding arh.. I just want to lighten the atmosphere mah.. ok lar.. I haven thought of it. I guess anywhere is fine as long as you are with the right person. But don’t want Malaysia and sentosa can?
76. Dream husband or wife: Jacky Cheung Xue You(not Jacky Chan) or Eason or Andy Lau. They very man neh.. got the very stable and responsible feel. But Andy Lau a bit too good looking. Hmmm..
77. Bedtime: Er… anytime.
78. Under your bed: the floor
79. Single most important question: wat?
80. Bad time of a day: Noon.
81. Your worst fear: Home infested with cockroaches and having no one to get rid of them for me. Plus impt ppl leaving me.
82. The weather is: decided by the heaven
83. Time: Out.
84. Date: 19th Sept 2006
85. Best trick did on someone: I never trick people lar. Pure and innocent remember?
86. Theme song: Currently on Keane’s Under the Iron Sea album. Is it any wonder?
87. Hardest thing about growing up: Enduring with countless mensual cycles and PMS before I got menopause and behaving like a real auntie then. Maybe I should start scouting for some potential marketplace kakis now. Anyone?
88. Funniest experience: never ending. My life is full of making fun and being made fun of.
89. Scariest experience: That ghost movie with zhimin years years ago. Was it the Ring? Eeerk..
90. Siliest thing you have ever said: I don’t say silly things. Uh-hur.
91. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: Them having me as their friend is quite scary already isn’t it.
92. Worst feeling: Not saying. It makes people upset.
93. Best feeling in the world: Waking up with feelings of hope, love and care.
94. people i wanna sabo into doing: Those last time sabo me de u all die liao.


AUDREY
JOSHUA,
KAIYUN,
GRACE.
The rest in my links list too. Marcus, tweety and gong lim.. should frame them.. eewin never update blog one so I don think he will know. Baobei still having schools.. can dun need to do if not she tired.. jane quite bored at home but sick.. up to her to decide.. do only when bored.. sick must drink more water and eat strepsils lar.. ur throat must take care if not next time no sammi cheng, become ah du. o.0”

Congrats!!

I'm finally having my menses! =] Okay, it will be the starting of the 'un-bloating' of my tummy because pre-mens-symptoms includes bloating, bad/short temper, swelling of boobs, pimples popping out and behaving like a gu niang.
After that torturing 1 week or so, everything will be back to normal. Meaning i won't be so gu niang? Ah-ha i think that doesn't matter~ I'm never really gu niang~


Muahaha~ i finally touched the waters of the fountain of wealth in suntec city! =.=" okay.. i think that sounded a bit er.. nvm.

Spotted

My brother just sign up for a blog account because he saw on the newspaper that certain minister don't understand why people are having blogs. The minister signed up for one account to see if it was really fun, this results in my brother imitating his actions.


However, my brother had to seek help from me to build a blog simply because, he is a tech-idiot. MuAHAHAhaa.. He wanted to know my blog address but i refused to let him know.... becoz somewhere and sometime i may have written some bad stuffs about him here. Oh-oh~ BUT, when i'm showing him my blogskin, he copied my blog address and dah-da, my efforts of trying to cover my add was wasted.


So i shall disclose his blog add here! haha.. it's a very stupid url, more stupid than mine.
www.shawn-jingshen.blogspot.com
lame. No?


Er.. and i was slacking at home the whole of today, thinking and sleeping. Muahah.. my leg hurts and i dunno why. perhaps i pulled my muscle when jogging? i dunno. anything lar. yaya, i went jogging yday becoz i felt that i was being quite unhealthy after i came into poly. My stamina, speed etc had dropped lar.. need some sort of exercise and whatever.

monday will be a day for mummy, tues for lamb and wed for the sec gang. thurs on and i'm v free. o and saturday i'm going for a escape in escape. Scream ppl! (but i don think i will scream)
taaaaaaaaata.

Positive

I guess I should go back to being a positive self. Uh-hur, after days of emo-ing, more or less I’ve sorted out my thoughts. And when i've sorted out my thougths, everything is back to normal again. I’ve decided to let it be lor. Since I can’t control it so might as well let it happen the way it will happen.


I guess staying at home for these two days helped. When I’m feeling lost or whatever, I will want to hide at home and let my mum pamper me. As for why I didn’t want to go home and went to school to play warcraft that day is because I don’t want my mum to see me unhappy. Muahahaa… Parents will get hurt seeing their kids unhappy ah…


The previous time when I went out with my mother to the market place in yishun, I took a clearer look at my mum from head to toe. She has indeed, aged a lot. She not only have winkles, white hairs but she also put on weight and shrink in size aka becoming around 10 cm shorter than me. I’m short enough and she’s shorter. Genes. Geeez.


Anyway, I should treat her better because I’m afraid that one day she will leave me. Okay, I know one day she will have to leave me unless something happen to me first. But I really hoped the day won’t come. I used to think that I am not afraid of anything but now I’ve known myself better, I know the thing I feared most is parting. I am willing to eat cockroach, eat shit and let anyone step on me and whatever lar, as long as my mum don’t leave me. Muahaha and I feel so much like crying when I wrote this lar… lucky my mum doesn’t know English and that I have a blog. My brother doesn’t know it too, that’s why I can curse him here when he angers me.


Moral of the story is: love your family okay? Especially mother. I’m not so close to my father so HAHAHAHAHAHA. Oh ya, after reading this, take a closer look at your mother and you will have some emotions unless you are that heartless. Bring her out for a shopping trip and pay for her meals. I tell you, she will love you more. Yeah! I’m gonna bring my mum out prob on monday to suntec city coz she saw the ‘touch-already-very-lucky’ de fountain ad in Ch 49 and she was asking how come she don’t know Singapore got fountain. Well, cause she’s mountain tortoise what. bleahs =X


Oh I just saw a talkshow and I think Caucasians are very sweet. Muaha.. that two muscular ang-moh guys were saying that they have to wash the dishes, clothes, cook etc at home instead of their wife. They also don’t go for looks wor! They are not as flirty as they seem to be hur.. imagine WWF the ROCK with osama beard squatting in the toilet washing clothes =X so funny and sweet lar!! (why osama beard?) While aud, lamb and wen going for either Japanese or Koreans, I shall dream of Caucasian man who washes the plates and cooks for me. Ah-ha, it’s good to dream.


Perline informed me that I’ve seduced her brother and he told her that I am very cute and he likes me. He even asked her when will I go to her place again. Muahahah. I like him too because he’s so cute and his ambition is to be a sumo-wrestler. I forgot his name and I called him egg. Muahah one day I should just go kiss him and see how he reacts. =]


P/S: Egg is in primary school.

全世界失眠

想起我不完美
你会不会逃离我生命的范围
想着你的滋味
我会不会把这个枕头变得甜美

*想起白天的约会
忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水
远离我梦中的堡垒

一个人失眠
全世界失眠
无辜的街灯守候明天
幸福的失眠
只是因为害怕闭上眼
如何想你想到六点
如何爱你爱到终点

一个人失眠
全世界失眠幸
福的失眠只是因为害怕闭上眼
如何想你想到六点
如何爱你爱到终点
如何爱你爱到终点

想起我的时候
你会不会
好像我一样
不能睡
想像你的暧昧
我会不会
数不到绵羊
一双一对


I’m losing my sleep. Too many thoughts at one go. No wonder my hair drops.
I ought to have an explanation for my not so good behavior yday which I don’t know if it has affected anyone but then I don’t really want to say what exactly is going through my mind that affected me more.


The chalet was okay but a bit boring. Maybe I was the only one feeling bored, maybe not. The higher the expectation, the more disappointment one will get. The things I remembered doing were watching dvds, eat, cycle, bbq, watch dvd, watch dvd, sleep and then watch dvdsssss. Not really that I hated watching dvds but watching it continuously disc after disc and day by day is a bit too much for me. For weeks, we’ve been staring at the computer screens and finally when we have a break for some fun, we switched to staring at the small television screen. How great. Furthermore, there’s still stuffs in my head that I wanted to stop thinking about but the atmosphere there don’t allow me to do so.


As for where I went and what I did when the rest are either sleeping or watching dvds midnite… I was outside the room, just outside the room for two or three hours to try having some private moments. I feel the need to have a time whereby I calm myself down and not having distractions from those bombings and fucking fuck fuck and fuck non-stop dialogue. Just when I thought I could hide and go away without letting anyone know, which I succeeded halfway, I did something stupid. I forgot that I have got no keys, my shoes are inside, the back door is locked and I need to pee after some hours of intense stoning. I wanted to wait till there is no more sound coming from the room then I go back in but my fucking bladder says she really wanna pee if not I will be doing exactly the same thing as the female lead of the Korean movie, who loses her ability to control her bladder. For my case, I don’t have a male lead to wipe or cover up for me if I urinate openly so no choice and I have to call bc to open the door. This is how dumb I can get isn’t it.


I shall make this less serious. Anyway, I can only remember the story of that 2 Korean movie entitled, A moment to remember or The moment to remember or whatever and the other was er… I don’t know. The one whereby the girl is the ‘slave’, and the guy is the ‘master’ that movie. The rest, I didn’t watch. I only stare.


For the first movie, it was touching indeed but I’m sorry that I didn’t cry. Yet, I cried for =] not once, not twice. I’ve became a crybaby all of a sudden and I didn’t want to. Nevermind, I know you will keep your promise and the only thing I could do is to wait. Maybe I should just dedicate my whole blog entry to you to say that okay, I will wait and wait and wait. =] Patience is a virtue. Anyway, it’s not the first time and probably not the last time I had to go through this. Perhaps I will get so used to it and I don’t know. Aw, just let the time past. Yea, I think I’m just feeling insecure. Ah-ha-ha-ha. Who cares.


For the second movie, it’s about this stupid guy who did weird stuffs and thinks that he is very cool and er romantic? They call it wat? New-aged guy? Ah-ha thank you. He is quite weird. Why would a guy hit on a girl he likes? The hit on is not hit on as in hit on but I’m referring to the physical ‘abuse’. HIT. It’s so primary school thing. Plus, what’s so fun about playing the ‘i-like-u-but-i-am-treatingyoulikean-idiot-or-shit’ kinda ‘game’? It’s so secondary school thing. If haven together already treat her like shit, den together already become what? Lao Sai? Ah~ no diff, it’s still shit. You call that fun and romantic? Yawns. He’s so much like my brother. =X


Okay, some may find it cute but for me, simple is class. The more ‘pattern-action-pack’ ones seem to give people the feeling of insecurity I guess. Like means like, don’t like means don’t like. Where got like den act as if don’t like. Funny. If I’m that girl, before I know that he likes me, I’d probably go off with some other man already. Still must wait until the day he can afford to put up those fireworks then can confess meh? Waste money only. This kind of things only happens in movies, so unrealistic. But it’s not a bad show for me coz I get to curse and swear inside my heart saying that can he just go up and say he likes her, kiss and hug and whatever happily ever after and therefore, end the story. Rmb? Simple is, class. Just like Debbie and Fabian. Look at those a lot of ‘patterns’ de couples, most ended up going separate ways. Break up also a lot of ‘pattern’. New-aged? Yawns. Old-age rocks. Okay I admit, I’m very square and triangle and diamond. Not funny.


Because I am still sad watt……………………………….. L
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRGGGGH.
Nvm, time will past by very fast. Treasure everyone around.


For you.. (yes u) not yet but soon..

Part of the song lyrics, goodbye my lover by james blunt.


I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you,
I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby,
I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Okay, I just saw that note in marcus blog that says: Contact Toopid for more details.

Er.. yeah rite. Actually, since when did i become the organiser of the chalet? i thought it was Edwin or Joshua? I guess i'm just trying to help a bit but i'm not the organiser arh.. I don't know everything so DON'T contact me for details like how much you need to pay if you are only coming on the tuesday nite for BBQ and wat are we doing, who are going and whatever. If anyone were to ask me what to wear, you better watch out too. you think i'm your mummy ah? DOn wear lar. Haiyo..
Ask the Uncle or the Cook or ? maybe they don't know as well? Nobody knows~ Just come and pay lar if you are required to lar. Mafan. =X i'm so mean that it's so me. =]


Okay all i know was:
*Grp 9 Chalet at Downtown East.
*Monday (11/09/2006 aka 11th September 2006) till Wednesday (13/09/2006 aka 13th September 2006).
*Meet 12PM at Pasir Ris Mrt Station. THE GREEN LINE.
* BBQ is on tuesday nite.
*We buying bbq food on MONDAY after unpacking our stuffs in the chalet.
*May watch midnite movie. i dunno lar, anything lor.


Grp 9-ers, Grp 9-ers OGLs, Grp 9-er's boyfriend/girlfriend, Grp 9-er soon-to-be boyfriend/girlfriend, Grp 9-er's maids and Grp 9-er's pet are welcomed but the owner will clean the shit. The rest, don't come. Thank you.


Oh, i would LOVE to say... the grp 9-ers are so good that all replied my message. THANK YOU AND I LOVE U ALL LOTS. so fake =.=" aniwae, haha.. it saved me a lot of troubles trying to contact everyone. EeeeEE u all so guai this time eh~ Sayang~~ MUahahaha..


As for Nette and lamb, will message them on er.. sunday or monday. they are the very last minute than can confirm de ppl. So... if lamb read this, maybe u would want to talk to nette first and see if she is coming because i know she don come means u don come and she's having iap. so yea.. den if can, can also inform yanling?.. thou i also dunno if she still er.. remember us? i have her contact but i don wan to message her in case that frightens her or wat? i dunno?


Done.
tata.
O O O.. Eason rocks =]

You're only lonely...
Ya rite, i'm sooo bored now but there's still something that i need to get it done by sunday so merry christmas and a happy new year. No link.

Aniwae, i'm quite looking forward to the class chalet on monday so that i could relax and den er.. play with anyone who wants to play and then slack again with anyone who wants to slack. easy life.

With this new template, the words seems too cramped up in the previous entries. arh.. lazy to change the codes so, i don care lalala.. if u find it too hard to read den don bother lar. it's all abt craps and crabs aniwae. No link.

oh, and this is the song i got to listen to in order to shit.
if u got constipation like me, try listening to it. it helps =]
to view chinese text, click View > Encoding > Unicode (UTF-8) and refresh. Don say i never teach.


重返寂寞 歌手：张智成

笑声塞进梦里面
回忆搬到最旁边
收拾好爱情呼啸而过的昨天
心恢复空洞整洁
一切干净到极点
你来你变你不见
现在只剩顽强的思念
还没有被解决
若命运只想拿个梦
敷衍我太长的等候
那大可不用美丽到
让我以为这次心动会有什么
也许还是重返寂寞
毕竟也只有寂寞肯永远爱我
也许还是拥抱孤独
从来也只有孤独肯陪我痛哭
从今后就选择沉默
选择服从岁月如梭
选择服从孤独寂寞

ha.. he's so man. and i love his songs.. haha.. in d future must force future husband or son or grandson or great grandson(if i still alive) to sing hahaha... EASON!!

For the past week, i've been staying over in friend's house and that makes me feel as if i have no home. Aniwae, my mum nagged at me a bit here and there.

U see arh, firstly i stayed in aud's place because we have to rush for studio project. After SP on friday, i went to perline's place to stay on sat because they need me there for some (not saying) haha aniwae, something got to do with after effects, which only i know how to use over there. Then, came home on sunday and then went to jane's place to stayover on monday. She's bored and lonely. yes, is HER not ME. hahha.. er.. i only a bit lar.. Ji Mo~

mama says, Eh~ u no home stay ah? need go ppl hse stay arh? somemore hor, go stay jane's hse which is only like a few blocks away from =.="
haha... okay.. i agreed to that point.. and this is why i insisted on coming back home on tuesday , not for the whole week. Ji Mo is ji mo, but i still love my bed and my home. lalala.. If ji mo, den find something to do or someone to accompany lor den wun ji mo le.. haz..

Oh, and happy belated birthday to lim dong.. (forget to send sms on the actual date BUT i did wish him that day so many times isn't it?) aniwae, had dinner with grp 9 that day to celebrate this and hopefully he is okay with it. haha.. okay, wish u cough no more.

okay i still feel comfortable with grp 9 and my tweety is still the same thou she got JOYCE now. hahhahahahah... Neh mind~~ she got joyce, i got rejoice. eh not funny. so what if she got weilun, kaiyun, zhiqun, li yang, joyce? i got audrey, huiwen, gerald, marcus, lim dong, bee ching. edwin is shared by both i guess. haha.. so 6 vs 5. i win!!! not fun.. hmm.. okay.. i admit to feeling ji mo now coz nothing to do. =[

and those ppl i msg to inform abt the chalet and din reply my message de, u better watch out. haha.. jkjk coz this is a spread msg thing, don need reply. but i can foresee that coming, there will be msg on the meeting time and who is going etc. if i send msg, kindly reply or u will be in my 'anti' list. haha.. good luck ppl, i don like ppl who don reply msg when there is a need to. muahaha becoz it seems rude? late reply is always better than no reply. (same as jane right?)

arh~ 12.45 now. br-lunch.
tata.

Everybody's Changing Lyrics
by Keane

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same


I don't know why i'm listening to this. Maybe it's something i've been feeling these few days?
But hmm... not totally this case. Maybe it's because it's on my playlist. Neh mind. Self-contradicting.

Why am i behaving in this way that i don't understand? hmmm.. Bored? bored of what? well.. there's so many things in life that you can't figure out so just take it as it is, perhaps. And.. i think.. ________________________________ sometimes warm, sometimes cold. what is that? hhaa.. dots. Neh mind. leave it to fate muahahahahaahahaahha. i'm gonna take everything easy.

i suppose i can't.

Finally it's over. it's over. it's over. i mean, studio project is finally over.
yeah. i am having my 6 weeks break now. yeah. holiday.
do i sound excited?
er not really.. because i'm tired now.

Our link for the SP application we did is http://www.ninehills.net/onlyher

The presentation went on alright lar.. not very nervous because er.. i don't know why. Neh mind . After the presentation, we went back to the com lab to play warcraft. haha.. it's the first time i played that and er.. okay.. i guess i know why they get addicted to it. It's about killing people like mad and being killed if you're suay. Anyway, i didn't get the last ranking! Mainly because there was lin dong there to assist me etc. The weird thing is that uncle got lower ranking than me.. Muaha.. who asked him to pick the whatever holy hero who specialise in healing and not combat or whatever tactic. Games student vs Im students. game boy loses out. =] what else?

after that, we proceeded to cine and planned to catch a movie. BUT, plans changed and we went to bugis to meet up with beicheng and ky for a steamboat in "tian tian huo po". Tweety came at a later time and surprisingly, i saw jane, wenhao and zhimin next to the icon restaurant lar! If not for them calling out to me, i won't know they were there. Well, they looked fine and can really see ah.. wenhao got the very happy feel now. muahaa.. jane and min looks the same arh.. muahah, next week we can meet up le. =]

basically and actually and probably, the steamboat session is more of talking **** session. the place is somehow too cold for me so i couldn't really eat comfortably. gastric problems occured to me but den neh mind..

oh.. and i have this thinking that gerald will be a very good friend, beicheng will be a good boyfriend and lin dong will make a good husband. tweety and aud agrees to it lar.. look at how beicheng 'teng' effie... wah.. hahah.. so full of care and concern ah.. i think it is quite cute to see a guy with the 'kiam pa' face (BC lor) defending his gf. now i understand why effie agreed to be with him.. i guess, he managed to touch her heart (not touch as in er use hand to touch.. er whatever.. my english not good.) and made her feel that she is important to him. his temper changed quite a lot BUT, can he stop initiating a audio conversation with me over the msn and yet don't talk? it's like, he do his work i do my work but we are having a audio conversation. dumb.

okay lar... i am so free now that i decided to stay over at perline's hse tonite.. hmmm not sure if i will be going out with nette and lamb(dunno) today.. nette wants to go out with me before she ganna the iap so ya.. fulfill her wish. =]

time to sleep.

P/S: i am very free now so i can start to go out with anyone le! freedom! well, i am more looking forward to the 'gathering' nxt week with debbie, e-tho, crystal, evvon, fay and jane(if she neh go bangkok).