woke up early in d mornin.. er.. 11 plus am.. to go causeway point wif mama and bro. well, my bro wanted to get a king/queen size bed, a table and a fan. mama wanted to get a sofa. and me? i wanted to get a handset. so we zooms there and to our surprise, the place is sooo packed with ppl.. go bank need to queue, go hp shop also queue, go toilet buy water also mus queue.. duhz..

mama bought me d sony ericssion w550i and a bag.. i was struggling wif the thot of should i get the k750i or w800i or nokia 6111.. but in d end got w550i lar.. coz cheaper ba.. and i liked the functions in it.. plus signing up a new plan.. so mama had to pay like $200+ for it.. den i jus made a remark that i want to change bag eh.. den she buy.. heh heh.. i noe why.. :) she got it as my early bday present ba.. i nv really celebrate my bday wif my family be4.. at most eat den that's it.. but i do rmb like mama will go market buy one v v v small 'baby' cake for me den one hongbao.. o! and d mee sua wif 2 hard boil egg. hope i get to eat it this year again.. and they dun rmb my english bday.. they onli 'celebrate' d lunar bday.. which is when i also dunno coz mama dun tell me.. nvm..

so in d end, bro bought a fan and 2 shirts and mama had alreadi in mind what sofa she wanted to get.. and all thanks to the very own singapore 'ga-men' aka government lar.. for the money lor.. election sure will money take one.. hope every month got election, den everyone dun need to work and worry abt $. fat hope thou..

aniwae, cleaned up my room today.. gave my bed to my bro but in d end become give to his frens. den where i sleep? on d mattress on d floor lor.. aniway i dun sleep on my bed wif the bedframe one lar.. that is for me to throw things only.. so might as well give away.. and now.. i completed my 3D telephone model. still got so many assignments to do.. boring.

P/S: since i change hp = i change hp no lor.. and my no is 8******* now. haha.. shall not disclose here coz in case some ppl i dunno one see den die.. if i dun tell u my new no den toooo bad. it either means that i dun have ur contacts OR i can't be bothered wif u. =)

i'm such a useless fellow.. how can i dunno that.. till now..
and so many contradictions in my life that is torturing me in a way or two...

zhi zhu chang le, wo bu zhi zhu ye bu kuai le..

kun is way too fast for me.. sian again.. 4 days of break.. dun even noe what can i do to spend my time.... no thumbdrive, no ring, no outing, no shopping..... no **** and soon to be no ****... no so many no-s.. no life... ulcers are my 'close frens' now...

why did i keep losing things? shit... i jus lost huiwen's thumbdrive.. and my ring.. and i didn't even know it till now.. mus be.. during 3d lesson i place on com lab table den forgot to take or wat... sian.. sure dun have alreadi.. sian sian sian sian... i dun used to be so forgetful de.. how can i be so careless.. argh... sian.. i hate losing stuffs and i keep losing it recently.. damn.. hiaz.. find sometime mus go pray alreadi.. sian la... hiaz.. miracle pls..
ultimate sian-sa-logy...

so far so plain.. assignments and assignments. boring life. so lack of motivation..

aniwae, jus got to know wanni.. agree that she is a sweet girl. at first thot she's jus another nice looking psn but a bit 'hack' feel. but today changed views.. a v sweet n nice girl indeed.

n stupid uncle eeeewin nv reply me when i call out to him. aniwae i call for nothing lar.. somemore still can msg me abt that.... funni ah pek.. old ppl brain not good.... think coz of his 'games' frens... maybe he realli ganna the 'arrow' shoot by d that hao xiong di. god bless him... aniwae kinda miss bullying him.. guess d rest also feel this way ba..

i thot nitetime was supposed to be v peaceful.. well.. i thot again.. and i assume so..but last nite wasn't a peaceful one.. not at all.. had a nitemare again.. and it spoils d whole of my day as well.. there is no logic in it but yet.. parts and parts of it is jus too eerie.. and too empty.. in it..

i was supposedly working with someone(i couldn't see the face.. it was blur..) in a supermarket.. but what we did was to jus wash the plates in the.. supermarket.. den comes the supervisor to tell us to go out for a rest. we did as told and after that we were outside this bunglow.. it seems so that the supermarket is at the basement of the bunglow. but when we were outside, she disappeared... i kept lookin for her but i can't find.... den dunno y.. behind me was a funeral.. with white candles all over on the floor.. no one there at all.. jus the funeral and de coffin that is.. not a single soul.. not even the someone whom i came out from d supermarket with.. and it was so dark... so i ran down to d supermarket but again.. there is no one at all.. i didn't see her.. ran up again.. keep on running and running.. but i jus couldn't find her.. jus when i was abt to realli break down.. i received a message from her but when i opened it.. i woke up.. jus suddenly woke up.. and i never get to 'see' the message.. there is no end for the nitemare i had..

after tt... jus empty.. feelin empty.. once again.. maybe i was tired once again.. but yet.. i've nv stopped thinkin.. and thinkin isn't something that when u say u wan to stop, then it will stop. again and again.. when i think and i can't figure it out.. it spoils my mood.. and now i've figured out why was i affected by this.. it wasn't the funeral that scares me.. it was d part when u search for someone so hard yet u jus cannot nv find her ... as well as the emptiness of that state tat haunts me.. i fear ppl leaving me.. n tt is a v weak pt of me but yet i noe this is wat everyone tend to experience.. at least once in a lifetime.. jus feels that.. i'm kinda lousy.. after all, i'm a human hur..

a v long day today indeed.. v long.. too long.. age is catching up with me.. already got some assignments to do.. and i dunno wat to do.. needs to focus yet not focusing.. but again.. life is also abt trying repeatively.. and i jus hav to keep on trying isn't it..

hmmm.. still unable to focus on studies somehow.. knock knock.. wake up..
aniwae, lesson cancelled. again. so dah da.. go sch for 1 hr lect onli.. dots.. txtbook so ex.. hmm.. dunno if there is still more txtbk to buy.. n also i had to borrow peiren's harddisk for some time ba.. if she is not using..

n oh.. was so bored again that i changed my friendster's skin. er.. quite fun thou.. it runs on CSS and god damnit i dun even noe wat was that.. rmb tt i jus asked audrey today in lect when i wasn't paying much attention.. *recalls..
me: audrey, wat is CSS? counter-strike ah? (ah niang ooei thot this is a new series of CS.. +_+")
aud: =.=""" .. Cascading Style Sheets ..
me: OOOooooor... *paiseh.. (*thinks. Huh?)
looks like.. i need to know more of these.. stupid.. shortforms or lang.. if not i will hav d prob of 'lack of levelling' wif other design stud =.....="

well, lessons were cancelled! meanin, one more free day. so grp 9 or er.. jus some from grp 9 went out to have dim sum in sunshine plaza coz hf say:" very nice, i never bluff u lar!" after that we intended to go marina to fly kite BUT.. hiaz.. rained.. =(

so how? go PS.. watch movie lor.. aniwae.. those who were dere were tweety, alien, gong lim, uncle, puca, nabei and cuscus. ha.. ok.. it's hf, aud, gary, eewin, ky, gerald n marcus. o.. grandmaster chun how left after d dim sum.. and we watched Take The Lead.. hah.. not bad =) din wan to say to much d spoil the mood of those who haven watched it. aniwae, we did something WOW! we went carrefour before going into d cinema.. and we were hungry... SOoo, we need to get some food. and what we did was like.. coz carrefour were like having some sort of sale for those chickens or wat.. it is like a whole honey chicken cost onli $3.90! hah...

being cheapskate ppl.. ky, hf, cuscus and me EACH bought 1 whole chicken. ha.. damn big lar! den gary share a pizza wif eewin PLUS one fish or fillet or something that is quite big also lor! den aud bought apple er.. er.. pie or 'shruddel'.. er.. 'st-ru-der'(as usual, i dunno hw to spell)?
so we smuggled the food in and after the trailer is gone, wahaha.. everyone started to take out our food and start eating like mad. the whole cinema stinks becoz of our chicken, pizza, fish and watever lar.. and i think maybe some who were hungry den might feel like killing us.

something worth mentionin is that.. it's quite funny coz we kop those plastic bags in carrefour to use it as gloves while tearing the chicken in the cinema.. can u imagine hw power and stupid we look like? hf and me kop 4 plastic bags each..ha..i dunno d rest kop how many thou.. 1 for glove, 1 for throwing of bones, 1 for holding d chicken and 1 for 'back-up'. den before that we alreadi get ready n went to d toilet to kop tissue paper to wipe hands. =) a well prepared 'operation'. and that irritating tweety hor.. ha.. ppl watch movie hor.. she eat until swing d chicken here and there as if she wan us to get caught like tt.. =.="

the chicken.. ah niang ooei.. tooo big la.. i cannot finish.. so after go home lor.. n hmm.. i thot my feet is ok.. now it doesn't realli seem so.. walk will pain.. but i still dunno where pain coz it is not red or wat.. no blue black nothing. but, pain.. dotz.. wat happen?

scold again!!! BA-KAR OR BA-GE-RO OR WAT SHIT..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i fell down again in my room.... :(
stupid stupid stupid stupid.. toopid..
trip on the headphone wires. =~~~~~~~(
haha lucky i can still walk =) jus a bit pain.. argh.. i think my room dun like me le.. or my floor like me too much.. either way.. hmmm

First day of school.
er.. nothing much. jus plain boring.
aniwae, i woke up quite early but i dunno what was i doing that caused me to be late for sch aniwae. i guessed tat my soul is still on d bed ba..

so i had to kinda rush to sch.. and even deborah is way more early den me. 1/2 way there, i realized that i forgot to bring my keys out. and den forgot to bring pen, forgot to bring landyard ... dumb. but u think i care?.. i dun think i need it aniwae...

so i was late. den no place to sit so sit with some other ppl whom i dunno.. lucky gary also late.. haha.. at least got one to acc me~ well, it was web design for a start. and er.. wasn't too hard YET but i think i was kinda slow? i dunno.. it seems so.. but again. i dun care.. i'll prob do at my own pace and hack d rest. den after tt, lesson ended... had lunch and off back home.

now, home sweet home. time to watch naruto again. all thx to beeeee ching~ hmm.. beeeee ching... ok la.. no more beeee ching... jus say beicheng will do. nvm..

P/S: thank god jane is back.. den i wun be so bored and floating nowhere..

danni just had a dream and a diahorrea.

well, d dream wasn't fantastic and dreamy kind but rather a very real life thing. it wasn't a nightmare neither was it like a dream. and ppl i dun wish to dream, ppl i dun expect myself to dream of, as well as ppl that i keep thinking abt appears in it. even words tat i said before or the psn who said that before to me, appears in it. so real and yet so fake.

and had diahorrea hur.. coz of... er.. i also dunno y. all i could say of that is... it's hot. =.="

aniwae, woke up quite early today... at 11am huh.. coz the basketball game that was supposed to be on became off coz most of them cannot make it. hiaz.. time for some exercise.. miss those days when i go play volleyball, basketball, soccer, badminton, touch rugby... with jc mates in sentosa etc.. my dear.. turtle.. qiqi.. 02s15 esp.. not tt i dun miss 02s06 but er.. 02s15's more fun.. o n grp 9 is also very fun lar.. *phew

think today i will be slacking at home doing nothing and jus staring at com ba.. maybe clear some
stuffs from the com. those that should be deleted shall be delete.. hmm..

O! and i did the test in audrey's blog that she was mentioning to me d other day.. i got my results! but i'm nt saying.. i'll tell audrey only~ coz she alreadi told me her's.. heh heh.. but i dun realli understand thou.. a bit very long.. and i did a IQ test also.. my score? dun say.. sekali is very bad.. aniwae.. wat is good what is bad? also read the suicide and self-injury website that audrey was saying.. hmm.. some thoughts but nvm.

jane's coming back today.. wonder how is she doing.. hopefully she is fine coz i keep asking her to not have any hopes when going there. the higher the expectation d higher the disappointments but dun be discouraged or lack of confidence thou. whatever is the result.. jus hope she is happy. n we all support her here! air tic to shanghai not cheap hur.. not like mag, can so heng go ganna de free air tic to shanghai to watch the thing. shit her lar..

P/S: i jus slip and fell off my bed.. =_=" i thot that was pretty dumb.. wth

3 days
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P/s: did this coz i m too bored. anywae, here's d link for d test http://web.tickle.com/color/ and as for my result. my true color is green~ yeah.. not becoz i like green so i m green lar. it says:
Green]
You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

i didn't say i m wonderful but d test says that *winks =P

Fucking bastards and bitches.. suddenly feel so pissed off.. why are human beings so damn freaking fake and selfish and cunning and irritating and what-so-ever it is. I hated this feeling. Really hated it.. I hate it when those so called 'friends' suddenly approaches u and act friendly and close to you when you have something of advantage to them. Wtf. Just because maybe your friend got an award or got famous somehow then u start to contact them to act like you know a lot of people with status? If that same friend didn't have certain status or what, would you still care so much to bother messaging that person? Those people sucks and I wished that they take a look at themselves in the mirror. Hello! Don't be so fucking irritating can! And what's more. Don't act so close to me and use the opening line that I resemble JJ and keep introducing me to other people whom I don't know and don't wish to know. I m not JJ. I m not fake JJ. I m myself. A fucking idiot who hates people coming to know me just because I resemble someone else. And this fucking idiot yet sucks so much coz she tries too hard to be tactful and not to start off cursing people for making that statement even thou she knows that they don't mean it. Hello me myself is a fucking fake-ko which fakes to hide my true feelings. Fuck. Human beings are like that. And I can't stand human beings. I can't stand a lot of people now and I can't stand myself. Whatever it is, just don't ever fake yourself to me if u want to be my friend or what cause though I m a bit gullible but I am seriously not that kind hearted. When time passes, I do know who are faking or what. And once I know, I will be very mean. I really will. I am really one of those fucking people with bad attitude when I can't stand it. I have my fucking temper and once I don't control, I can't guarantee what will happen. I have a high level of tolerance but don't play too much and don't ever toy my feelings or play mind games with me. I hated that. And not only that, if anyone were to hurt those who are really close to me and true to me, I will not let the person off. And don't say one thing to me yet do another thing behind my back. I will know sooner or later. Just a matter of whether I want to say that out or to give u face and keep quiet about it. I don't want to hurt anyone but if I do, I will have my own reasons which I may not say and have the other party hating me in the future. And don't let me know that you are being very selfish to me or what. Once I know and that's it. If it is understandable, I can still close one eye open one eye. If not, then I won't be that kind. Don't lie to me. If u do, don't let me find out. I used to believe that when u are nice to people, they will be nice to u too. Now I don't. That is another fucking crap and belief that I used to believe. Nothing is so simple and nothing seems simple to me now. And that day Gerald was saying that I changed already. I m so much older and mature than what I used to be jus few months back. And I don't play with them like what I used to do. He said it in a joking manner but maybe he do mean it. I m not angry with him coz I know it myself. I don't want to be a joker already. At least for this moment of time. I know how to joke, I know how to make people laugh but I am kinda sick of it. No one seems to take the words of a joker to heart. The feeling of emptiness after laughing is something that I have to bare with when I don't feel good but yet I can't do anything much. I want to be laughing normally and I want to happy and I try too hard to be normal. It is only when I m with those who are true to me then I can let go off some streams and be back to myself. For days and days I keep going out with Jane n zhimin they all. I know they accepts me for who and what I m. esp Jane and Deb. Even thou most of d time when they are talking, I m keeping quiet and listening as thou I don't even existed but that is me. The very old secondary school me who don't talk to most people unless very very close. Very unlike the so called 'now' me. Fuck. Again and again. maybe I will go back to my sec days. Maybe I won't. I dunno. The fucking life is so unpredictable and evil souls remained in everyone or almost everyone's body. And that includes me. Don't awake my evil soul. And I won't take too much initiative already. Sick of doing too much of it. Find no meaning. It takes two hands to clap for everything and anything. And I only take initiative towards 3 people so far. I remembered not talking to jane for 7 months coz we both are not taking initiative. She waited for me and I waited for her. It's always me who do the talking first and den I became so sick of it that I stopped doing that. And when she finally look for me after months den things got nice. My twin soul… I hope she will never grow evil cause if she did, it would equals to me being evil. I know who is real and true and will be with me till my dying day. I know very well. And I can count with my fingers. Whatever I m saying and I dunno what is this stupid thing that I m saying and got so pissed with. Whatever. I know there is people reading my blog but I dun care and don't ask me why or what coz I wun reply to that. I m jus letting off some streams. Fuck myself for doing that but again. I dun care.

All of a sudden.. i m having pimples on my face. dotz.. sudden outbreak.. shit! so i asked jane why is it that there is a sudden outbreak of pimples? she said 1) ur menses is coming 2) u r stress 3) u lack of sleep.. hmm.. no 1 is out of the question. so i accept d 2 n 3 as answers. hated PIMPLES!! anywae, besides having pimples on my face.. i had 'pimples' in d whole of my yday! n this is gonna be a long entry but i dun care.

1st 'PIMPLE'..

i WAS SUPPOSED to work. so me and huifen went all the way to tanjiong pagar International Plaza and lost our way a bit here and there.. coz we went to the lower building of IP.. den found out that there is two IP. stupid.. can't they name them differently? aniwae.. we FINALLY found our way there and we both forgot the floor level. so i called theresa and d boss. both nv pick up phone.. den i had to call theresa' bro den get theresa on d phone. den guess wat! she said the event was cancelled and she messaged me but nv get my reply. *faint.. i didn't receive any notification so did huifen. and i didn't reply obviously means that i dunno rite. those who learned comm skills before should noe that, when u receive a msg, u should reply to avoid communication breakdown. so the very dumb me and huifen was pissed off till poor huifen dropped a tear or two. coz she ganna 'dua' d 2nd time le n it onli happens when it involves her. so we were saying how suay and black her forehead is. and make a joke out of nothing.

so we have nothing to do and we went far east to wait for jane to come out of her hse and den to do her new hairstyle! and here comes the second 'pimple'.

2nd 'PIMPLE'.
Jane.. being someone who needs to take ard 1 hr to bathe and 1 hr to make up came finally and we headed to the what what dor something shit salon. o and we met up wif jing jing too.. so 4 of us headed there and we were hoping to see the change in image process.. BUT.. no space for us.. so we had to leave the salon leaving jane alone inside with those model teacher etc. so we left to walk ard aimlessly and feeling v tired.. low mood, no mood. watched the street basketball thingy and saw aaron who is injuired.. den loiter here and there.. den saw huiwen in taka kino. den loiter again. met up wif maggie and den huifen leaves to go home. mag was cursing like how come she come den huifen leave. hahah.. so swayed to that delfi orchard AGAIN! wait wait and wait.. den go forum toy r us to walk walk.. dennnnnnnn until ard 7 or 8 pm.. all hungry and bored.. finally~ enters the NEW JANE~

3rd 'PIMPLE'.
she is like the new egypt queen or something lar.. and she hated her new hairstyle to the extent of suddenly crying out.. poor thing.. heart pain hur she cry.. hiayo.. dun cry la.. hair will grow back.. bare wif it la.. it wasn't that bad.. it is v style la.. a style that er.. we ppl dun dare to have.. =X but is vvv style la.. models den will cut tt kinda hair.. and u dun look bad so dun cry... one of the ppl that i dun wan to see crying.. hmmm... so after that we had dinner and den went to toilet. and here comes the 4th PIMPLE. and is a VERY BIG one.. ha..

4th 'PIMPLE' n d most happening or all.
d 4 of us.. jane, mag, jing and me went to the toilet in wisma.. so before entering the toilet, i can SMELL something. but bo pian.. jus go in lor.. den coz i m d last one.. so i can see some v weird expressions of the 3 of them. den jus turn to look into the first cubicle, AH NIANG OOEII~~ OMG!! SOME BITCH SHITTED ON THE FLOOR! AND IT IS ONE WHOLE BIG LUMP LIKE THOSE OF THE HIPPOS! *FAINT.. haha.. the 4 of us laugh until cannot tahan la.. as in who d hell dunno which is the toilet BOWL and which is the FLOOR? the psn shitted on the FLOOR that is jus infront of the BOWL. omg~ and d stupid jane was like eh eh take picture leh.. take the shit den post on blog.. den we were like.. er.. excuse me.. i dun wan to keep that shit pic lor.. best thing.. jane and jing was like who go take.. who who? mus be danni liao.. u go take eh.. v good fren hur u all.. this kind of sai gang wan me to do.. i dun wan lor.. but realli.. how come shit on the floor in the TOILET? i was thinkin maybe she too hurry already.. den shit on pants den go to toilet, wanted to flip the shit into the BOWL but ended up on the FLOOR. but aniwae.. that is v disgusting and this 'PIMPLE' of my day STINKS badly.

5th 'PIMPLE'.
headed home.. n jing went separate direction coz she was taking bus. den while on train near reaching admiratly, peiren called to ask us out for super ard 11 plus pm. so we ok lor.. den got off at admiratly den went to the table at jane's block downstairs.. downstairs = lou xia~ den started to eat and chat. guess wat we hav for supper? 20 mcnuggets, 8 chicken wings, 2 large fries and 2 large lemon tea. hmmm... very LIGHT supper. so we chatted and can easily rmb what the few of them keep saying.. like peiren will swear a bit here and there :" eh.. CB arh! sorry huh but bare wif me coz i need to curse and swear... what can i reply jeremy?" hah.. den maggie keep saying :" guys are all bastards. bleah bleah.. " den jane keep saying this for the whole week:" when u can't love someone, hate that someone.." hmmm.. den as for me? i listened to them talk and i fell asleep on the chair like those ah peks in chinatown. =.=" and i slept till ard 3 plus Am before they wake me up and went home..

reached home, bathed and shitted soooo early in d morning. that shit in wisma inspires me to shit.. if not i nv shit for a week alreadi.. hmmm.. slept and i woke up now le! yay! nothing to do. dumb.

had a briefing in sch yday and ya.. i got into IM and in fact, everyone got their first choice. I wasn't feelin er...excited or happy or wat aniwae.. jus o.. i got in. ok.. that kinda thing. i think most ppl felt that way too? IM had 3 classes instead of 2 and games had lesser students i think. hmm.. which grp i got into i also dunno yet.. but i hope still can be wif those grp 9 de..

after tt.. went out wif jane instead of class.. ok in d first place i din know there was this class outing aniwae not realli class i guess.. those who know were the ones online de day before or wat.. so d rest dunno.. and i dunno.. so not that i dun wan to go out wif grp 9 ok.. is u all nv tell me earlier.. =_=" aniwae.. i chose to go pei jane coz she is my twin soul mah.. and she is dere when i m down so i will be there when she is feeling down or stress or wat-so-ever..

o.. n also becoz we need to take pic of her wif long hair before she needs to cut them off before she go to shanghai for the competition.. hmm.. carrie models wanted her to cut her hair to those hardcore short short short china doll hairstyle den dye all black yet refused to let her see the hairstyle they cutting for her today. er... good luck to her.. realli.. er.. god bless u.. =0 we were saying that maybe today she will hav depression or wat... so yeah.. but i may not be able to see the new hairstyle today eh.. dunno.. coz i will be workin.. job? facilitator. again. boring.

party world and kbox love me. i m their saint. i m being sooo nice to them.. =.-"
sat or sun, i k-ed wif jane, zhimin, wenhao and yanlin in partyworld for 4 hrs.
wed, i k-ed wif jane, fen and kaiyun in kbox cck for 5 hr 30 mins.
today, i k-ed wif wing in kbox amk for 3 hr.
and add to that, last week.. and last last week and last last last week.. i've been going to partyworld wif the same old ktv gang hur... wa...
i live my life by singing till i almost drop..

aha.. n i finally sort of know what is my vocal range today...er.. not realli.. and wat singers' songs i should sing.. after wing told me.. guess who should i sing? hahaha.. she say i should sing step sun, jolin, elva, guang liang, jeff chang, david tao tt range de songs.. =.=" but but their songs at a certain point of time need to stretch leh.. lazy.. mafan n weird neh.. and dun ask me sing wat.. coco lee lar.. A-mei la.. Zhang qing fang lar.. those de songs.. i can die.. =.-"" even before i can open my mouth i stress alreadi..

wing say i v lazy n like to chose songs that i dun even realli know.. ok i admit.. lazy to stretch vocal.. lazy to open my mouth slightly bigger.. lazy to read the lyrics properly.. sit also lazy to sit properly n need a lot of time to warm up hahaha.... but.. but.. that's me ah... okkkkk i TRY to sing er... not so lazily nxt time.. try la.. TRY =_+"

so er... nothin much~ slackin still...

Was listening to this song by Soler, a new HK band.

点了最后一支香烟
拿着准备好的行李
好想打个电话给你
却没有勇气
多么期待你会再打来
叫我别走你的最爱不必悲哀
电话没响所有一切都一样

还记得我们的承诺
总想起你说过爱我
自暴自弃也没用
难道我真的想不通
虽然伤口越来越痛
感觉呼吸越来越重
不会再停着一直做梦
哭也没用忍着伤痛yeah

离开你我真的痛
你不知道你不知道
哭着看着你离开我
你看不到你听不到
为什么为什么要离去
为什么为什么再相遇
已变成陌生人

看着我们当天的那照片
当天我们的记念
那灰蓝的天又再回到从前
躺在我的怀里看夕阳
你说希望永远都一样
不管怎样不停回想
结局过后还能怎样


Here is a link for d song:
http://s51.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0NYJF412LYPAM2RKTLQDNFC2UU

was kinda upset that hp dunno got wat prob.. suddenly auto shuts down and den when i switched it on again, those sweet messages or pictures that i received n kept for months or even years were all gone..
even the message that jane sent to me after we din talk to each other for ard months was gone too... ahh... i kept tat since 2004 la... ahhhhhh....fuck la.. and also some messages that i think is v sweet... to me.. were gone.. gone gone gone gone gone...
maybe the god is trying to tell me some memories are best to be erased.. but yet they were selective in deleting the messages for me.. those stored in the sim card were not erased.. and that message was not erased..
worst of all.. the only pic that i hav of my grandma n grandpa was erased.. duno wat to say alreadi.. jus.. i need to change a phone.. soon.. when my contract' over...hiaz..