I dun Know Why

early in d morning.. er... grandma gave me $20 coz she scared i dun hav enough money with me... i tried rejecting it, there was this 'push here push back' action going on.. but she insisted that i should take it.. but the thing is, i still have enough for myself and i dun wan to take it coz it seems so weird for a 20 year old to get money from grandma.. but den in d end still took it coz mother say take lar.. if not push here and there, i dun need go school le.. faint.. felt so ashamed.. of myself...

den.. as usual.. saw nette, jiawan and gang at d station lar.. den walk to sch lor.. realised a bit late.. den thot of walking faster.. but then think they are famous for walking slowly? haha.. so din noe what to do so jus .. normal lar... still got 96.7% attendance.. :) but can sense.. hmm.. jiawan walk faster hor.. scared that i'm late woah.. den.. hmmm... saw chun how running for lecture.. haha... den they ask me run after him.. ok lor.. run lar.. c how long will it take us to rush to the lect hall... so i rush to chun how.. *faint... one 20 yr old and one 24 yr old running to lect hall early in d mornin coz we scare we late.. so lame.. so weird.. but i did tt.. dunno why..

watched children of heaven.. was touched by the story.. d way d bro treat her sis.. but in real life.. anyway, after lect.. went for 'brlunch' in FJ... spent an hr eating..den proceed to d lib wif chun how, weilun and huifen.. wanted to read some books lar.. etc.. but i dunno why.. instead of reading.. i fell asleep in the discussion room for an hour.. am i realli that tired? i dun think so.. so tt means i did nothing in the lib.. they finished their readings.. so we decided to leave..

i actually din wan to go home... wanted to jus go anywhere but home.. not tt.. there's a war inside or what now.. but jus a bit empty.. i din wanted to join bee ching they all with their arcade today coz i dunno why.. jus dun feel like lor..
in d end... i went home.. at 12.. i usually take ard 40min to reach home.. coz there's this 10 min walk from the station back home.. but today i left at 12, reached at 1.30pm.. in fact i reached my station at 12.30.. but i took me so much time to walk the '10 min' walk.. i can walk damn slow..

reached home.. grandma slping.. dunno what mum doin.. cookin i think.. den.. i din say anything much.. lock myself inside d room.. as usual.. den what? stared at computer.. dun feel like doin my assignments.. so i slept.. till ard 5pm.. den?

jus had my dinner.. blah blah.. dunno waiting for what shit.. and yah.. it had been some days since i last 'shit-ted'.. when will i shit?

n i did one dunno what test some days ago.. it say's my 'mental age' is 32 years old.. = ="!! there is a 12 yr difference.. maybe yah.. i'm thinking like a old woman... sooner or later i will become a v old psn and start nagging and frowning everyday..

boring... even this entry i wrote is damn boring.. but i jus wrote it anyway.. coz i m bored.. aniwae i can onli talk to d com at home.. so.. yar..
so many things to do yet no energy to do.. think i should slp again..