Cheapos

First thing that my father told me when i reached home was that my uncle had left this world and i dun even know why.. after much pestering.. mama told me that he had been ill for quite some time.. and d illness he got is the same as my grandma. i was shocked for a moment.. but i wasn't depressed coz i m not say close with tt uncle.. i onli c him once in a year during chinese new year period and i nv talk to him be4... but i felt that.. it's a pity that he left so fast coz his son is getting married soon.. now i think that marriage may be postphoned.
the birthday celebration for my grandfather this sat has to be postphoned as well.. no one will hav the mood to celebrate... my grandfather's v old.. more den 80yr old..

this thing leads to me thinking that his sons are all around 30 years old.. so what happens when i m 30 years old? life seems to be so short suddenly.. it is like 10 years from now, i will be 30.. and what happens if i lose anyone who is so darlin to me? may it be my parents or anyone.. now when we are still young.. yar rite.. i m STILL young.. we tend to take things for granted but when we finally lose it one day, we will start to regret and say IF we could start all over again or IF we know it earlier, we shall not do what, say what.. but den why say IF? if i know, i would hav stike lottery and living on a lala land now.. what shit is that IF thing? but a lot of ppl knows that they themselves are taking things for granted yet they are still doing it and they dun care.. why? coz we are cheapos. and being a cheapo is a normal human behaviour. ok.. and that suxs. i think i m a cheapo as well.. well.. a cheapo toopid.

so when i was thinkin about this, i went to bathe. and when i was bathing, i happened to feel like shitting.. ok, and i shitted. and after i shitted, i bathe again.. gosh.. so when i m shitting, i had some thots again.. and i think too much.. but i think it sounds logical to me.. that is.. do u realise that the onli shit that u can tahan smelling, is ur own shit? when u go into the restroom in the public and u happened to smell or see other ppl's shit, u will tend to 'shiam' away and shout out "OH SHIT"! and u will start cursing and swearing that how come tt particular psn dunno how to shit properly and how come his/her shit is soooo damn smelly.. okay.. but think again.. where got shit smell like perfume one?

when we are interacting with other ppl everyday, we cannot tahan the shit that other ppl is giving us but that doesn't mean that we can give other ppl shit too.. we have the right to shit and give ppl shit but other ppl also have the right to not tahanin ur shit. if we know how to control ourselves and be nice to ppl, keep ur shit to jus urself den the world will be so much nicer.. but we are not doing that.. why?

coz we are cheapos, remember?

ok.. enough of shit.. i got to go study.. got test arh...