I think i am havin my menopause at this age.. get pissed off easily and get tired easier also... tied up with piles of assignments, did them without any inspirations resulting in designs that i think is damn bad and i dunno why i did that in the first place. din really sleep for the past few days and still not getting what i want.. m i a perfectionist? i think i am now... i dun used to scare so many about sch work and stuffs.. maybe becoz it is more competitive now? everyone is working hard so i got to work double hard as well.. stressing myself somehow but i hav to.. old ppl..

joined claymation competition with d class and after soooo many discussions, no result. can't even decide on the script. sch wan our class do like 3 claymation animation rather den jus one coz there are too many ppl in one group and we hav got soooo damn many ideas on this thing.. prob is that we have TOO many ideas so we couldn't decide on the thing.. keep wanting the script to be that of the perfect stage but den it gets a bit over when we all try too hard.. and yar.. maybe we will do 3 claymation den. but can we faster settle on the script? by rite.. we should hav got all the scripts done up alreadi and maybe.. ya maybe.. we are falling behind time.. we got to be more serious.. i think not only that i got pissed off today but and not many knows that besides a few like wen, fen and how.. i can sense some faces turing to the 'dark' side..

i m fortunate that i m in grp 9 coz of the ppl inside who makes it so happening and good. v united, v hardworking, v fun (well, most of them) but meanin that we will have lesser personal time.. not happi, wan to throw temper also v hard.. c their face.. all look young, playful, innocent.. better not throw temper if not their feelings ganna hurt. so how.. swollow all the shit back.

sch work aside..i still can't think of an idea or plan that i can do hiaz...not sch work but nvm. i will hav to crack my head to dig out watever shit that is inside. and yar there is still 9 stuffs that i hav to do by nxt week and 8 of it are different assignments. most prob when i managed to strike off like 4 of these 9 stuffs that i have to do in my list, i will have 7 more added to it again.

so i wun hav time for a lot of other matters like workin in turf.. realli sorry to zhiwei as he keep asking me to go back work but i hav to reject him.. and also like esther wanted to meet me and debbie these few days/weeks.. but it is always us who can't make it. and ya.. i wanted to keep ppl like jane and wing accompanied coz they seems to hav some troubles that they may want to tell me face to face and yet.. i gt like no time for it.. and nette has been calling me out these few days and i went for none.

bee ching complained that over msn my msg 'tone' is like v stress out tt kind and i talk to him is like not v gd attitude lar... ok i admit.. my attitude sucks when i m doin my stuffs and ppl keep disturbin me resulting in me unable to concentrate and produce sucky results. eg, yday nite.. i think i ignored so many ppl and ya.. even to Baobei.. now den i started to feel bad again.. always feelin bad for things that dun seem to go right. i m losin my patience slowly.. control.. control.. control...... hiaz... nv ending shit.

n yes, i dun like ppl who keep asking me to do something which i dun feel like doing and also when ppl hang up d phone so abruptly without a right reason for that. someone did that to me today.. n i got a bit pissed. i think that is basic courtesy that we should have but unfortunately yar.. and yes, for ppl who i kinda like/dote/etc.. it is ok if u are late when meeting me coz i will have damn high level of patience. and i rmb that in sec sch i always wait for ppl.. d highest record should be when meeting peiren. she was late for more than 3 hour and i sat on the bench on the mrt station doing nothing but jus wait, wait.. and wait.. i wasn't angry.. i can even jus wait one whole day from morning till nite if i think the psn dun mean to be late or i like d psn but jus dun keep doin that.. coz i will finally get pissed off someday. and den ho ho.. merry christmas. that d end of it man.. i look nice but i may not be nice, i m onli nice to ppl who are nice to me.. so ya..

as for those who i dun realli care/like/shit.. if it sooo happens that u have to meet me or i hav to meet u, pls be punctual. slightly late is ok.. 15 min is the maximum. so ok.. got it.. bye bye.. shit..

i jus wan to sleep....... i m tired.....