grandma left... when i was already rushin to see her.. i din made it in time..
i shouldn't hav left for home first after skipping lectures.. before going to grandma hse.. but i did because i intended to meet my cousin to go together.. she left at 4.58pm.. and i reached ard 5.30pm.. late.. too late..

however.. relatives says that grandma left peacefully and quietly.. when she is alive, she likes to dress up nicely.. and when aunties changed grandma's outfit to something nice.. put on bangles on her etc.. she left.. auntie says grandma wan to leave this place beautifully.. thou i reached there late.. i was still able to look at her.. thou she is not moving.. but somehow.. there seems to be a smile on her face.. and i felt more relieved.. at least she had almost everyone with her.. she is still considered very fortunate as all her sons and daughters were there.. grand children and great grandchildren too..

d only thing i did for grandma today.. was to go out and get make up materials for her 'make up'.. n that's d only thing i can do.. now.. i'm more worried for my grandpa.. i won't forget this day.. and.. yes.. i will study hard.. i wun disappoint grandma.. my parents.. and myself..

i wun be goin to sch till wed.. but jus wanted to assure frens.. that they dun hav to worry for me.. i'm ok.. really.. jus give me some time.. i will be back to the normal marshmallow when i had sorted my thots out.. m also.. quite.. touched that fen and tofu tried to cheer me up even thou i did not give realli much of a usual reaction.. but i m aware of that.. jus a bit dunno how to say face to face.. so ya.. dun worry for me.. i'm ok..

relieved.....i m relieved..... m not so.. tense now... i know grandma is free of pain and smiling in heaven.. lookin at her family of around 50 taking care of her and thinking of her... a big family.. she will be remembered.. and happy..
take care..