I'm such a cheapo and i can't stand it... things that i couldn't have den i will like it, stuffs that comes by easily to me den i won't be interested at all.. even when it is good or wat.. why like that? and this applies to all aspect of my life.. frens, material stuffs, love, result... watever shit..

i rmb when i was a kid.. i wanted to get something like a toy or maybe a sweet.. i will try v hard to impress or act cute to mother in order to ask her to buy for me and when she didn't fall for my trick, i will give her black face all the way back home.. and i wun even bother to talk to her.. so when she bought me other stuffs that are not so nice or watever, i won't be interested to take a second look at it.. very mean..

i hav lots of frens.. but usually those who don't intiate to contact me de will make me contact them.. dotz.. and i won't go and intiate to ask ppl to go out if i know that psn will ask me out.. watever shit.. and also that if i intiate too much and i get tired, den i will hack and get fed up den dun contact.. dotz.. wat m i thinkin? cheap behavior..

my love life? waha.. quite secretive... not many know anything of that.. in fact i think no one knows.. onli jane knows a bit.. but aniwae.. i do rmb esther asked me on the bus on a certain day.. that her mother asked her why i still not attached? and funny thing.. she asked her to intro ppl to me.. dotz.. i still think i dun need it.. coz the ppl i interested in tends to be the one who is not interested in me and the ones who are interested in me are the ones who i m not interested in.

suddenly rmbed that jane and peiren asked me be4 if i would fall for girls instead..
and what did i say? i think i say maybe rite? why ask me that? i forgot to ask her tt time.. but i think they are not the onli ones who asked me this.. i was asked by others too.. used to it..and mama getting worried but i can't be bothered still..
she say this to me jus now:" how come u not boy? if not i think u hav a lot of gf hor?"
i say:" u ask urself why i not boy lor.. how i noe? fate lar.. "
she ask again" how come u never bring guys back home? u bring home one not together one huh?"
i say:" ya la... dun hav means dun have lar.. "
she ask again:" who is ......"
for this.. i got to say thanks to jane huh.. for anyhow talk crap to my brother that day that makes a hooha in my family.. =.="
i say:" he is my fren, my brother. he is attached for very long alreadi. there is nothing going on bet us at all and jane anyhow say one coz she nothing to say to my brother.. "
soo... jane.. pls..... dun anyhow say lar... will die.. u wan his gf to come and haunt me like the way she haunted u?

mother dunno wat to do also and she gave up.. and i think i also give up.. i can't figure out wat i wan when it comes to this.. so diff with those toys and sweet.. want means want.. die die also must buy.. relationship needs time to manage.. it takes two hands to clap and it can't be bought using money. so dahda~ i m still not fated to hav anyone so nvm~ continue wif my life even when i will die of single~

P/S: i not pms-ing too.. coz alreadi ms-ing.. =.=" o ya.. studio proj 2 is here.. to haunt me..