She really is.. last sat she made a remark that my brother treats her better compared to me and that he thinks for her more than i do.. almost immediately my face turns black and i went back to room, pack my stuffs and go marina square early.

maybe i really didn't show her how much i cared for her.. i wasn't used to that.. so making her having this misconception that i don't care.. but these few days.. she did stuffs that make me feel touched.. she detects my mood so easily.. and i didn't even throw temper.. no nothing.. and yet she treat me so differently.. i wasn't eating well but i eat but aniwae nvm.. she went to get stuffs like chicken chop etc to try make me eat.. she hated it when i buy tibits to eat but she jus bought home 20 small packets of chili photo chips which i like to eat.. and when i went back to room.. i saw another 2 new socks.. green color somemore.. and some other stuffs.. she no longer scream at me for not taking my clothes to keep and not tidying things.. instead she tidied her own and talk to me so soft that i m so not used to it.. i guess she is treating me as some sort of god or ghost now. can see cannot touch.

aniwae.. mama's treating me too good now that i m so not used to it but yet it still er.. feel quite good? in a way? as in at least she dun irritate me when i m doing my work or when i am in my own world of thoughts. so wat now..? treat her better lor..

P/S: my shit is damn heavy! one shit 1 kg! yday i shitted 2 shit and den i m 2kg lesser den last week.. hmmm.. no wonder weilun and edwin says that my body is made of shit. so if i hav accident or die or wat.. den the doc will opened up my body and the shit will explode out.. dotz.. and i still hav 1 more shit in my ass but cannot come out. how's tat?