全世界失眠

想起我不完美
你会不会逃离我生命的范围
想着你的滋味
我会不会把这个枕头变得甜美

*想起白天的约会
忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水
远离我梦中的堡垒

一个人失眠
全世界失眠
无辜的街灯守候明天
幸福的失眠
只是因为害怕闭上眼
如何想你想到六点
如何爱你爱到终点

一个人失眠
全世界失眠幸
福的失眠只是因为害怕闭上眼
如何想你想到六点
如何爱你爱到终点
如何爱你爱到终点

想起我的时候
你会不会
好像我一样
不能睡
想像你的暧昧
我会不会
数不到绵羊
一双一对


I’m losing my sleep. Too many thoughts at one go. No wonder my hair drops.
I ought to have an explanation for my not so good behavior yday which I don’t know if it has affected anyone but then I don’t really want to say what exactly is going through my mind that affected me more.


The chalet was okay but a bit boring. Maybe I was the only one feeling bored, maybe not. The higher the expectation, the more disappointment one will get. The things I remembered doing were watching dvds, eat, cycle, bbq, watch dvd, watch dvd, sleep and then watch dvdsssss. Not really that I hated watching dvds but watching it continuously disc after disc and day by day is a bit too much for me. For weeks, we’ve been staring at the computer screens and finally when we have a break for some fun, we switched to staring at the small television screen. How great. Furthermore, there’s still stuffs in my head that I wanted to stop thinking about but the atmosphere there don’t allow me to do so.


As for where I went and what I did when the rest are either sleeping or watching dvds midnite… I was outside the room, just outside the room for two or three hours to try having some private moments. I feel the need to have a time whereby I calm myself down and not having distractions from those bombings and fucking fuck fuck and fuck non-stop dialogue. Just when I thought I could hide and go away without letting anyone know, which I succeeded halfway, I did something stupid. I forgot that I have got no keys, my shoes are inside, the back door is locked and I need to pee after some hours of intense stoning. I wanted to wait till there is no more sound coming from the room then I go back in but my fucking bladder says she really wanna pee if not I will be doing exactly the same thing as the female lead of the Korean movie, who loses her ability to control her bladder. For my case, I don’t have a male lead to wipe or cover up for me if I urinate openly so no choice and I have to call bc to open the door. This is how dumb I can get isn’t it.


I shall make this less serious. Anyway, I can only remember the story of that 2 Korean movie entitled, A moment to remember or The moment to remember or whatever and the other was er… I don’t know. The one whereby the girl is the ‘slave’, and the guy is the ‘master’ that movie. The rest, I didn’t watch. I only stare.


For the first movie, it was touching indeed but I’m sorry that I didn’t cry. Yet, I cried for =] not once, not twice. I’ve became a crybaby all of a sudden and I didn’t want to. Nevermind, I know you will keep your promise and the only thing I could do is to wait. Maybe I should just dedicate my whole blog entry to you to say that okay, I will wait and wait and wait. =] Patience is a virtue. Anyway, it’s not the first time and probably not the last time I had to go through this. Perhaps I will get so used to it and I don’t know. Aw, just let the time past. Yea, I think I’m just feeling insecure. Ah-ha-ha-ha. Who cares.


For the second movie, it’s about this stupid guy who did weird stuffs and thinks that he is very cool and er romantic? They call it wat? New-aged guy? Ah-ha thank you. He is quite weird. Why would a guy hit on a girl he likes? The hit on is not hit on as in hit on but I’m referring to the physical ‘abuse’. HIT. It’s so primary school thing. Plus, what’s so fun about playing the ‘i-like-u-but-i-am-treatingyoulikean-idiot-or-shit’ kinda ‘game’? It’s so secondary school thing. If haven together already treat her like shit, den together already become what? Lao Sai? Ah~ no diff, it’s still shit. You call that fun and romantic? Yawns. He’s so much like my brother. =X


Okay, some may find it cute but for me, simple is class. The more ‘pattern-action-pack’ ones seem to give people the feeling of insecurity I guess. Like means like, don’t like means don’t like. Where got like den act as if don’t like. Funny. If I’m that girl, before I know that he likes me, I’d probably go off with some other man already. Still must wait until the day he can afford to put up those fireworks then can confess meh? Waste money only. This kind of things only happens in movies, so unrealistic. But it’s not a bad show for me coz I get to curse and swear inside my heart saying that can he just go up and say he likes her, kiss and hug and whatever happily ever after and therefore, end the story. Rmb? Simple is, class. Just like Debbie and Fabian. Look at those a lot of ‘patterns’ de couples, most ended up going separate ways. Break up also a lot of ‘pattern’. New-aged? Yawns. Old-age rocks. Okay I admit, I’m very square and triangle and diamond. Not funny.


Because I am still sad watt……………………………….. L
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRGGGGH.
Nvm, time will past by very fast. Treasure everyone around.


For you.. (yes u) not yet but soon..

Part of the song lyrics, goodbye my lover by james blunt.


I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you,
I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby,
I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.