Time for an update about myself.


For the past week, it has been quite a disaster to me. i almost felt that i m dying and keep having the urge to cry but yet had to hold it back.
Okay, the thing started of with me having this pain in my mouth or jaw area. I thought it could be that my wisdom tooth is growing that's why i felt such pain. So after asking quite some friends about wisdom tooth, i went over to woodlands polyclinic to check.


The dentist asked for my age and after checking me, he said i had wisdom tooth and at least one at the bottom left. So he gave me a referral letter to SGH national dental centre and a kinda painkiller, Ibuprofen. That night, i felt pain again and i took the painkiller prescribed to me. What happened next was, within 30 minutes my eyes were both swollen like ultraman and i'm not lying. It was so swollen that i couldn't even see. Then my nose starts to block and i cannot breathe through my nose. Suddenly i felt nausea and my heart beating faster so my mum rushed me to a nearby clinic and i was given a injection immediately. The doctor says that it is drug allergy and i have got a severe drug allergy. Medicine -> Predisolone was prescribe to me after that.


My nose unblockes after the injection and i felt slightly better. I thought the swell would go away within 6 hrs (usual case) but it turns out for me to take 4 days to fully recover from the swell. I thought for a moment i am going to be okay.


Okay, during the 3rd day i went over to lynette's place for her er party coz i scare no one go later she disappointed or what. For one min i am laughing out loud, the next min i find my heart beating faster and the chest felt so heavy that i need to lie down and try to catch my breath. I knew something was not right so i faster pia cab home.


Back at home, i felt more secure but not better. I forced myself to sleep yet i can't sleep and the next day, i started to have diahorrea, heartburn, fast heartbeat and i also vomitted. Besides that, i had insomia and i couldn't eat coz of the jaw pain as well. I felt so confused and weak that i wanted so much to cry out loud like a baby and hide inside my mother's arms but i didn't, coz i know that will make her worry more.


So i kinda struggled past that few days diahorrea-ing and etc. till i felt better yesterday. In fact, today i did "lao-sai" in the morning. Aniwae, today i was scheduled to take a x-ray on my wisdom tooth so i went to the national dental clinic with my mum like 8 in the morning.


First x-ray taken and guess what the dentist told me?


I only have one wisdom tooth on my top left and that wisdom tooth is not affecting me.
But that isn't what the polyclinic dentist told me. Well? What can i say?
So i was asked to take another x-ray and they stuffed something in my mouth, so near my throat that i almost puke on the nurse when taking the 2nd x-ray.


After that, the dentist confirmed with me that, it's actually not wisdom tooth that is affecting me. Neither is it that i've got tooth decay. It's more of my muscle thing. Either i overworked my muscle on my left (biting too hard? etc) that cause it to ache and have headaches, cannot open jaw or i have some sort of gum infection.


Furthermore, he told me he was very surprised that the doctor gave me predisolone for my allergy thing coz it is a steroid and no wonder i've got so much side effects that seems to be killing me.


Now, i'm given another set of medicine, Anatex. This is used to relieve my muscle and it will cause drowsiness. Just now i felt so damn drowsy that i can just suddenly drop and sleep that kinda thing. I hated it. I really hated the feeling of being sick but then again, who likes it anyway?


I felt like a pill and i cannot stand it. How long more must i be under medication? 2 weeks? That is what the current dentist told me. To stay under observation for 2 weeks and see if the muscle thing gets better. Argh.. I want to be healthy, i want to be running around here and there, not letting my parents worry for me.


I do hope i get better each day but now, i am worrying for my minor project. I have not started anything at all cause at first i was slacking then i was sick for nearly 2 weeks and now i still felt dizzy but was better coz i just woke up. I need to get some work done but i have no concentration at all now. really felt like ... argh....


And ya.. i really need to thank those who showed me care and concern during this 2 weeks. you all know who you are if u did er care? yea.. thanks..


But, the person i need to thank most.. is still my mother. She had been worrying for so long and it's very hard on her coz im still very dependent on her.. if i can.. i really wanted to let her know how much i love her but this is never expressed to her directly. I hope she knows that.